Thoughts.com Blogs - JUST WHEN THINGS DRY UP A PUPPY PEES IN MY BED !

I SLEPT LAST NIGHT!!!! I ATE YESTERDAY!!!! no big deal maybe you're thinking but i haven't been sleeping at all lately and it's been more than just insomnia. it's been shit i don't understand at all. worries about things, stress over things i can't control, nightmares over current situations, and tension, tension, tension. last night i kept falling asleep at the computer and finally went into my room with TABASCO SAUCE and died. kept falling asleep at the wheel coming home from work too. i was a physically exhausted human being. slept for a long while, talked to a good friend and then went back to sleep TIL A CERTAIN PUPPY WHO SHALL REMAIN NAMELESS DECIDED TO PEE IN THE BED. oh, gross! man! shit!  so there i was changing my bed sheets at 545 am on a day i have off and could sleep. i get done changing my bed linens and think "i think i'll hop on the old computer awhile". AND A CERTAIN NAMELESS PUPPY THAT IS TRYING TO GO BACK TO SLEEP IS COMING WITH ME. HE PEES ON ME, I KEEP HIS BUTT UP WHILE I PITTER PATTER ON THE COMPUTER. but hes asleep here on the desk anyway. who won that battle of wits? i get the feeling it wasn't me. so now i'm blogging on what got me here to begin with. i am babbling.
   i finally ate something last night too. i fixed the old standby chicken. brought it upstairs to eat and guess who started wolfing it down. TS hadn't been eating at all and i was very worried. but last nite he really liked that dead bird. i cut it off the bone and into really tiny pieces and shredded it some and he ate a lot. i felt better about that. gave him a little water too which he drank (hadn't been drinking either) and generally felt better. i ate very little but at least i ate some. my clothing are starting to hang on me again. i gain and i lose. i lose and i gain. right now its the losing thing. whats that about? i think its nerves again. when i get upset i don't eat. i just get very sick when i eat. i'm a fucking chef! if i can't find good food to eat then believe me it's me. i don't feel sickly just tensed and stressed.
PERSONAL UPDATE, the spouse is still here. don't know what its about and don't want to know. he says hes going to leave me alone from here on out. (yeah, right?) he says he likes TS and has actually been puppysitting while i'm at work. just as long as TS doesn't bond with him. no assholes or butt munchers in this puppies life. he has a daddy and doens't need a step father especially a dead beat one. anyway i'm suposed to be getting more hours at work and a raise soon so i'll be gone anyway. i'll be able to afford a decent apartment. i have a couple trips coming up and want to take them before i am on my own. might as well use this situation to my advantage. huh? (think i may go down and make a pot of coffee now! please excuse me for a few minutes). aaaahhhhh thats much better! coffee! whats better first thing in the morning?? sex?? well maybe, but thats not an option for me here so i'll take the coffee! pureed some more chicken for TS so that he'll have something later on. i think i have him hooked on chicken. i may have to buy a chicken farm on the side to keep up with his new habit. lol i'd do anything for this little bed peeing, ankle biting, hickey giving, remote control molester, cell phone cord chewing little shit. we're family. hes great for my morale anyway. he keeps me from going over the edge. he is somehow mellowing out asshole/butt muncher, keeping him at bay until i have the edge. good puppy.
don't know what i'll do today, all day. clean? yuck! laundry? yuck yuck! maybe mondays aren't so good. there is always work, work, work. i think it's going to be a beautiful day. maybe little shit and i can go for a walk, even though he'd be carried and i'd be doing all the walking. if i'm going to be losing weight i may as well be excercised. firm up girl. tighten up that ass. hup, one two three
   i was talking to someone yesterday and they were trying to figure out how i took the name lastblast. they told me there was a song that went: WE REALLY GOT BLASTED ........FUN WHILE IT LASTED....... i don't even know such a song but would like to hear it. i acually took it because i thought i'm getting to the point where i won't have many more blastoffs. this is my last one. ergo, lastblast. just that simple. but i've been proven wrong before. i was told life is full of surprises a plenty and never but never think you're down for the count. just when you think things are dried up a puppy pees in your bed. peace and harmony