i've recently gotten to know a friend more intimately. it began as just two people talking and esculated to a more intense relationship. it is very frustrating being far apart and trying to talk. i can't see his eyes when he speaks or hear his tone go up or down not knowing how he means things he says. i can't tell if i'm getting his undivided attention or is he multi tasking on the computer (hes very computer savvy, therefore able to do a hundred things at once). i like to think when we're talking that i'm the only one hes talking with. i don't know anyone that doesn't like to be the ONE. i think of him during the day, when i wake up at night, while driving to work just about anytime of the day it seems. i wonder if he thinks of me as much or half as much. i only know when hes angry at me i'm miserable. when he is in a bad mood i want to fix it and cannot. when he is hurting i want to hold him. and the most important i want to reach into the computer and pull him out to be here with me. oh when technology can supply that one! if he were here there would be no tears. if he were here there would be no hurt. if he were here there would be no pain. if he were here there would only be passion, intimacy and smooth sailing into those unknown waters that i am so looking forward to going.