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So.......I was up sick last nite. Called the doctor early this morning. She doesn't come in til 1:30. DAMN IT!!!! I had wanted to take the boys to this little amusement park called Williams Grove in upper pa. It had long been a favorite spot bc of the fact that its cheap, clean, small, and fairly close. I thought since i can't see the doctor ....just go. So i did. We drove and drove and finally got there. The park was closed....for good. It was just a small 'mom and pop' place but it was soooo nice. A dollar got you in and five bucks let you ride all day. The grounds were lovely with flowers, trees, the greenest grass, a huge pond with swans and ducks and NO CROWDS. But when i asked about it a man told me it needed some rennovations and mom and pop were getting up there and just decided to close it. A hugh loss for everyone, I'm sure.
I knew Jared and Riley would be disappointed but they seemed fine. I asked them what they wanted to do and they told me to go home and work on a project they have been so intent on. I smile bc it was so sweet that they didn't say lets go here or lets go there.....something else. Hershey Pa with the famous Hershey Park was only about 20 min. more up the road but they didn't want to go. They wanted to eat...naturally and then go work on this project. I said 'ok' and we headed home.
On the way home the clouds were just gorgeous. They started playing a game. Finding clouds that made something. They found horses, cars, rabbits...all kinds of things. Then Jared got quiet. I thought he had fallen asleep and when i turned around he was just looking out his window. ''Whatcha lookin at?'' i asked him. He turned to me and said..."Whos taking care of Scottie now?'. I felt this lump in my throat form. 'Is ur pappy taking care of him?'...I felt the tears stinging my eyes. He knew my dad was gone as we have talked about him before. ''Yes he is taking care of him''....'How did he know where to find him?...Heaven seems alwful big!'. I explained to him once you get to heaven you know all there is to know. You see everything and everyone that comes there. You are never lonely, in pain, hungry, hurt, sad again. You are happy all the time. He must have thought about it and then asked. 'Are there cars in heaven?' 'How about bikes?' 'Can you ride on the clouds?' The questions were coming a mile a minute. I told him you can ride anything in heaven. Riley piped up and asked 'What about unicorns?'. I laughed and said ''yeah, even unicorns''. So a few minutes went by and Jared asked again. 'Can Scottie ride a unicorn?' My answer to him was ''Absolutely''. 'Can Scottie see us?..."yes, he sees us"....'Does Scottie play on all those clouds?' ''Yes, he does''....'You know what mommaw?'...I looked into the mirror...''No, what?''...."EVERYTHINGS FREE IN HEAVEN ISN'T IT?" That was it....the tears just came. I couldn't have held them if i had tried to hold them. I pulled off the road and turned to them both and said....''Yeah, it is free!''....''Everything is free in heaven!''. With that he looked out his window and yelled...'Scottie!, know what?...everythings free in heaven'.
When i say in my posts I love these children you have no idea how much i mean that. Today when i got up i didn't think i could love them anymore than i did....but they proved to me once again....I don't know crap. I am so full of this emotion called love it feels like its physical. Its palpable when I'm with them. You can see it...literally see it. Its an aura around us. A protective wall that keeps us safe from harm. These boys are so unselfish, so pure, so untouched by the bad in the world. How do i keep them safe from the bad? How do i keep them from knowing that life isn't always fair and it has nothing to do with how good of a person you are? Right now all they know is that everythings free in heaven. |
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Posted by lastblastkl on 2008-07-15 19:50:42 | Rating: | Views: 96
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Now i'm crying. What a wise woman you are. What a gift children are. But you know that.
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Posted by circe
on 2008-07-15 20:20:43
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I'm choked up too. The innocence of children is one of the best things in this world.
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Posted by Meredith
on 2008-07-15 20:49:57
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yep I teared u too. absoultely amazing what kids do for us. thank you for sharing that lastblast, I know I don't comment much but this post right here made me smile and cry at the same time. best to you....Molly
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Posted by Katydids_and_daisies
on 2008-07-15 21:35:10
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C
Thank you for the lovely comment. I don't see me as wise, but just a grandma that loves unconditionally these little boys.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-07-15 21:41:44
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Meri
It breaks my heart sometimes to think that the innocence of children will be taken from them too soon. I'm keeping these babies safe as long as I can. ty
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-07-15 21:43:15
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Molly
Welcome to Super K's cave...I'm so glad you left a comment and what a nice one it was...:)Please give ur little daisy flower a hug..they grow up too fast.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-07-15 21:45:09
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That's exactly what I love about kids.....they are just so outright, honest and innocent. You handled it beautifully....those small moments are the special memories to cherish always :)
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Posted by Kaybee
on 2008-07-15 22:17:56
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I'm so glad you have them in your life. Children are such a blessing from God. Untouched by the cruelty of this world, or the ignorance of prejudicium. Not only do they consume so much of our love, but we can learn so much from just watching the way they look at life. Everything is such a wonder to them. I wish I could still see this world through their eyes.
You sound like such an incredible Grandma. They are two lucky little boys to have you in their lives.
God Bless!!
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Posted by keepdreaming
on 2008-07-16 02:13:13
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I have just spent the morning playing with my little grandson and thanking God for his beauty. When he took a nap I took time to stop of and read your blog and I found it awesome. I just look forward to those days ahead when PJ can communicate in such a beautiful way as your precious boys do. God bless
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Posted by overthehillandfar...
on 2008-07-16 07:13:31
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That was such a touching post. I love children and I think I won't feel accomplished in life if I don't get to be a mother.
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Posted by prelude2it
on 2008-07-16 13:28:26
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I just got all teary eyed at work. After dealing with hard times with friends, cancer in the family, problems at work - - it's when I read things like that, that I am reminded of all we have and how truly blessed we are every day. thank you k.
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Posted by TheAlreadyJaded
on 2008-07-16 13:36:07
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im thankful from a male point of view
you loved them i was abandoned by my mom at a young age and when i read stories like this it touch my heart because i had to fight harder then most people
but through it all i found a greater love jesus who loves each and one of us
but i disappointed him like any child or grown up would.....im bless to see mothers and fathers care deeply for there kids....kids are so helpless and need our protection ....God bless you and may you recieved many wards
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Posted by good_news
on 2008-07-16 21:00:12
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