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Posted in The Naked Emperor on 2008-03-31 21:45:02

i'm gone but the spouse had a "friend" for the past 4 yrs. why he didn't choose to just leave me and go to her has been a mystery to me. why put me through the crap he has? it seemed so wrong that i got the bad stuff and she got the good (what was left). but all is better now. good luck to u and kp

Posted in Flat chested unite! on 2008-03-31 21:35:10

i've been losing weight and have already lost a bra size. i better save the bras and have them mounted on my walls or something. i'll label them "those were the days". i'm back to a 36b and i haven't seen that in a long time.

Posted in Is it just us or...... on 2008-03-31 21:25:04

never do that! not that there is much money in it but its the point. STEP AWAY FROM THE PURSE!!!

Posted in AND NOW YOU KNOW THE REST OF THE STORY.......... on 2008-03-31 21:17:58

ellie, i covered some of this with her this morning and we even ran overtime. i think i may join the group therapy too. not sure yet. i don't want to get therapied (is that a word?)out. i just want to make smart choices and not stupid ones. i hope i come out of this better than i went in.

Posted in AND NOW YOU KNOW THE REST OF THE STORY.......... on 2008-03-31 21:15:24

pitapie thanks again and yes it does feel good to purge that crap.

Posted in DIET DIVORCE A NEW PROJECT?? OH YEAH! on 2008-03-31 18:25:24

thanks bjm1. i am content right now not overly so but just a peaceful contentment, and i'll settle for that for the time being. compared to the last few months, yeah i'll take it. :)

Posted in alcohol on 2008-03-31 12:39:00

oh bjm, i am ur mirror. do what u need to do for ur self and ur boys. good luck

Posted in AND NOW YOU KNOW THE REST OF THE STORY.......... on 2008-03-31 12:34:36

thank u pitapie, i didn't realize this post was so long. YIKES! i guess this was my first therapy session since it will take an hour to read it.LOL i just want to purge this crap inside my head and rid myself of it totally and forever.

Posted in I'M BACK WITH A FURY! on 2008-03-31 12:30:45

kp, its so good to see ur sweet angel here. thanks sweetie.

Posted in no cuddling on 2008-03-31 11:11:28

sweetie, i know what ur saying and i hope it doesn't take u as long as it did me to figure out some things are just what they are and get out. if u can leave and know in ur heart that u did all u could do for this broken marriage then u walk out with ur head high. u couldn't do any more. i stayed for my kids and that was wrong too. we do our children no favors staying in a bad relationship and then saying we stayed bc of them. i personally would feel terrible if someone gave up their life and was sad and miserable for me. i would rather have two happy parents apart than two miserable one together. too bad i didn't realize that a long time ago. take care hon

Posted in Credit where credit is due .... on 2008-03-31 04:33:09

u have the patience of an angel. i'm glad i have no small children in the mix right now. my kids r grown and have definite opinions about the spouse. good luck sweetie.

Posted in Random Thoughts .... out there on 2008-03-31 04:26:30

easytosay, i love this. what a great blog. my problem is what i think i want is not necessarily what is needed in my life, so if i wish for something and find its not what i need can i send it back? or do i get "sorry no returns"?

Posted in I'M BACK WITH A FURY! on 2008-03-31 04:11:56

stickman, good to hear from u again. thanks for being so supportive. means a alot.

Posted in REGRET on 2008-03-30 22:08:26

WHOA, WHATS THIS ABOUT? I AGREE WITH EASYTOSAY, R U OKAY?

Posted in THE PARTY WILL NEVER BE OVER ! NOT REALLY! on 2008-03-30 20:39:13

nubian, she and i are as different as night and day but she says opposites attract even in best friends, so we're stuck together. she knows the meaning of friendship like no other.

Posted in SISTER EMAIL ALERT AGAIN!!! on 2008-03-30 20:35:14

nubian, are u fooling around with these men too? man they do get around. lol

Posted in I'M BACK WITH A FURY! on 2008-03-30 20:34:09

nibian, i just get so mad when someone tries to hurt someone i love as much as her. i screwed up, not her. i made a mistake, not her. i won't let anyone beat up on her.

Posted in TWO FOR THE PRICE OF ONE? on 2008-03-30 20:31:31

hey nubian girl good to hear from u. i will keep writing and i'll be ok and tink will be ok (if i can ever get her back here). its done and its over. thanks girlfriend

Posted in The Ex, The Mistress & My children on 2008-03-30 15:11:59

i felt for u too when miss8 came home. sometimes it takes so much to hold our tonges (mine lately has run amuk. but ur a great mom and never let anyone take that away from u. i know u will meet mr right someday and i know he'll treat u as u deserve to be treated. good luck.

Posted in The Ex, The Mistress & My children on 2008-03-30 15:11:49

Posted in Ohhh Boy has it been that long? on 2008-03-29 20:57:28

wishing u the best of the best

Posted in THE PARTY WILL NEVER BE OVER ! NOT REALLY! on 2008-03-29 20:48:35

hollis,tinkerbell is my bf here at home and u i think have earned the honors for my bf online. i love u so much. i know some of my battles are over and some are just beginning. i will choose which ones i want to fight with a lot of thought. i know i have friends watching my back. kisses and hugs

Posted in Is It Safe On Here on 2008-03-29 17:39:51

i read ur post and commented. u will see what i mean. take care fancie

Posted in A Horrible Thing That Happened to Me on 2008-03-29 17:36:01

i know of this kind of thing. i was six and an uncle did the same to me and then when i was about 13 a closer family member did worse. i have never gotten over it and i too am catholic and believe in forgiveness but i can't either. when my uncle passed and everyone was saying what a good person he was i just wanted to hurl.how could people think this man was good? didn't they know he molested me? i wanted to scream it! when it happened again i thought i would just die and by someone i trusted more than anything. i wanted to tell my father but knew it would have caused so much more hell. i ended up telling my mother and she blamed me bc "he" wouldn't do such a thing. i became a self destructive human being and it continues on and on. i'm trying to be stronger and get stronger bc of things currently happening in my life and i know i will. i have to believe in something good, or what else do we have?

Posted in Who plays you? on 2008-03-29 17:27:12

probably......phylis diller?.....just kidding!!! most likely diane keaton. we resemble a little and i like her.

Posted in NOW I KNOW on 2008-03-29 16:05:44

soul, am i living ur poem or what? i'm dizzy that ur words spoke with such reality and truth. i wish i could gather all the poetry from this site and bind it together and keep it with me always and forever.........sigh.....

Posted in Just the Facts Maam - and who am I? on 2008-03-29 16:01:22

mush huh? is that why we are the way we are? now i know!i over think things to death bc i am afraid of making mistakes and then go and make them anyways. i cannot win. i do things and then try to undo them and i screw up my life royally so bad. i hope someday (like u) that some knight in shining armor comes along and takes me away. i dream of such a human being. are there any out there?

Posted in My Story . . . From the beginning on 2008-03-29 15:56:27

oh sweetie, i know what ur talking about. my parents were as different as nite and day. a loving father and a cold mother. i also wondered if she was my real mother bc i was the only one out of five that seemed to incur her wrath. never did anything right. my dad made up for it in so many ways though. i love and miss him so much. i wish i could meet someone half the man he was.

Posted in FOTY really won't learn... will he!? on 2008-03-29 15:49:59

i'm so glad i don't have to deal with children in my present situation. children learn from what they see adults do. its how we all learned. kids are resiliant too. they are way smarter than we give them credit for. ur kids seem so together. i was a private nanny for 12 yrs and saw all types of families. what i've learned from adults is minimal. what i've learned from kids is mountainous (is that a word? should be if its not).

Posted in Who Was Your First Crush? on 2008-03-29 15:38:22

p s. who is cliff richard???

Posted in Who Was Your First Crush? on 2008-03-29 15:37:29

my first crush was ralph kielholtz until he tried to kiss me! then i had to give him back his crayons. it was over!

Posted in TWO FOR THE PRICE OF ONE? on 2008-03-29 15:31:45

ellie, how are u my friend? i think its so funny bc i have enough trouble being just me let alone someone else. i couldn't understand why i would want to do that anyway. why? just to jump someones ass? there is a whole world between me and the asses of the world on here. i'm not afraid to say anything here but if i were in person......maybe. i am the biggest wienie. don't like trouble although it follows me like a shadow. can't get rid of my self destructive ways. maybe after i get rid of this pain in the ass i've been married to i'll be better. we'll see. take care girl

Posted in TWO FOR THE PRICE OF ONE? on 2008-03-29 15:27:13

hollis,tinkerbell will be just fine. she is a real woman and an asskicker for sure. she just feels bad that she may have made things rougher on me here. i don't care anymore. i'm tired of people thinking they can hold me down with shit. i'm sure when it all blows over she'll blog some more. she has never journaled before and cannot even fathom that i read so much. shes different from me so much but the friendship works so well somehow. she understands now how i have gotten so close to some on here. she couldn't believe the sense of love and the comaraderie.

Posted in I'M BACK WITH A FURY! on 2008-03-29 15:21:36

hollis, isn't she a trip? u should work with her. we laugh like 2 idiots some time. i swear shes nuttier than me. she wants so much for me it makes my head hurt. she has seen my face light up at the sight of a stupid text and seen me go to pieces over some. its hard for someone that cares for u to see ur life get flipped back and forth. when i had that terrible black eye i had to practically hog tie her into not killing the spouse with her bare hands. and this last episode was almost too much and i forgot i didn't tell her (i just could'nt)and she read it here. it broke my heart she had to read i was raped on line. i never want to see that kind of pain in her eyes again. she was as devestated as i was. she is my dearest friend. i know she'll cry when she reads this. she is such a wiener.

Posted in I'M BACK WITH A FURY! on 2008-03-29 15:14:33

prelude2, thanks for the support. the lesson here? never piss off a woman in the midst of a divorce.

Posted in SISTER EMAIL ALERT AGAIN!!! on 2008-03-29 15:12:40

green, be glad u don't have these friends. hope u never do. lol

Posted in SISTER EMAIL ALERT AGAIN!!! on 2008-03-29 15:11:19

hollis, no my sister isn't on here. she wouldnt know what to do with all the shit that bounces around here. she'd be on for one day and say "screw this" and leave, pretty much like my friend has. some people are so smart.

Posted in SISTER EMAIL ALERT AGAIN!!! on 2008-03-29 15:09:05

easy to say,i'll send ur three men to my sister. she'll get a kick out of them. so many men in our lives that we just don't want. lol

Posted in FIRST NIGHT IN NEW HOME on 2008-03-28 20:38:43

have heard the songs and thank u. do u really think they are me? cool! i love that song "wonderful world". makes me cry.

Posted in A PUBLIC APOLOGY TO MY"SPECIAL" FRIEND ! on 2008-03-28 20:35:58

hollis, i sent u an email darlin. explained things from my heart. please don't ever go away.

Posted in I'M BACK WITH A FURY! on 2008-03-28 20:33:27

thank u so much. i needed to do that for so long. get tired of being the original doormat for the world.

Posted in I'M BACK WITH A FURY! on 2008-03-28 19:19:35

thank u greenersky its damn good to be back and feel better. funny how anger can make u do things u would never do. i had no intentions of ever coming back her at all but no one disses my friends, no one. good to have u on my list. thanks.

Posted in A PUBLIC APOLOGY TO MY"SPECIAL" FRIEND ! on 2008-03-26 17:35:50

chance777 my apology is not an act of humiliation or shame at all. it is though humiliating and shameful to put it up for the whole world to see. i was going to pull it and thought no bc i am sorry. but i wasnt the only one doing something wrong. if i wasn't hit on first then it would never have happened. someone needs to remember that little tidbit. it takes two to tango and i never dance alone.

Posted in A PUBLIC APOLOGY TO MY"SPECIAL" FRIEND ! on 2008-03-26 00:11:41

tinkerbell1988, thank u for ur comment. u are right as far as someone from here telling him. what i'm sure he didn't tell him was........not important anymore. its over and i'm done saying i'm sorry to any man. they forget sometimes they aren't perfect and i know i'm not. tired of trying to be for people who don't really give a shit about me in the long run. i just hope this guy looks really hard into who he calls a friend and homey bc things are not what they may seem.

Posted in A PUBLIC APOLOGY TO MY"SPECIAL" FRIEND ! on 2008-03-25 23:42:38

sexykel. i've gotten a lot of emails over this one. the general idea is i shouldn't have to apologize to anyone let alone publicly for an almost indescretion on a computer. i just left the spouse yesterday and here i am saying im sorry for almost making a mistake over a computer. when someone says it like that i realize how it sounds. too late now. i just don't like making others feel bad. doesn't accomplish anything and sure doesn't make me feel good.

Posted in DO I LOOK ANY DIFFERENT? LOOK HARD! on 2008-03-25 23:38:09

thanks ellie. i don't sleep on the couch but i wouldn't care. its good and tabasco and i are home as far as i'm concerned. the shelter is offering me free counseling and i'm taking it and everything else i can get. thank u.

Posted in AND SHE SLEPT ! on 2008-03-25 18:41:43

chance777 i understand more than u will ever know. i betrayed someone and will never forgive myself for it. it is truly the lowest a person can go and by the time i realized it, it had been done and i couldn't take it back and i tried. i am in a hell made by myself and will forever be there.if i could say one thing to the person i betrayed it would be to please try and forgive me if for no other reason than to just stay in my life someway. i will always remain in this alwful place that i have created. i am a terrible person but i am a sorry person, and hope that they will search deep to find forgiveness. i will never forget. thank u for reminding me how important and fragile lives are.

Posted in AND SHE SLEPT ! on 2008-03-25 14:39:23

thank u so much. i'm content about this part of my life. i know its not over but i'm out and that much is done. i'm sure the storm isn't over though.

Posted in FIRST NIGHT IN NEW HOME on 2008-03-25 07:44:27

all seems well finally. thank u

Posted in I HATE THAT WOMAN SO BAD! on 2008-03-25 00:26:12

ellie, and coloradodreamin. things are ok now.

Posted in DO I LOOK ANY DIFFERENT? LOOK HARD! on 2008-03-25 00:23:44

colradodremin,im in my room with my computer and the only disturbance is riley popping in to see if i truly am here. i'm safe and sound and its nice. had a nice dinner and shower and am ready to turn in and have a nice sleep. sounds so normal yet so alien to me. i'm ok.

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-25 00:20:00

hey blue, its good right now. very good. ty

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-25 00:18:42

tac, i want to yell this to the world. i'm free of him. thank you.

Posted in DO I LOOK ANY DIFFERENT? LOOK HARD! on 2008-03-24 18:11:31

thanks easytosay. i won't.

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-24 16:56:31

easy to say, tabasco is going through some issues here. two kids and two BIG dogs(but nice dogs they are) are a little much for him. but i'll counsel him if needed. lol nothing is going to bring me down today. absolutely nothing. i simply will not allow it.

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-24 16:53:58

ELLIE my daughter was here helping and its done. i'm gone. i'm really gone ellie and i'm going to sit here and cry again. only this time its tears of relief and just letting go of all the shit i've been putting up with and although i know its technically not over i'm out and the rest i can deal with. our local shelter has been in contact with me all day and they are going to be with me the whole way. no more doing it alone. no more!

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-24 16:07:35

thanks chebtastic1. it's done now. i'm a pa person. don't feel any different than being a md person. but my grandsons are loving it. i'm here all the time now. whhoooo hoooo u should see the happy dancing they are doing. cute! cute!

Posted in I HATE THAT WOMAN SO BAD! on 2008-03-24 12:54:36

thank u ottehey. i think most of us r just too hard on ourselves and some not enough. i just want to shake me sometimes and tell myself to get with the program.

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-24 12:49:41

badlydrawnstickman, how sweet of u to drop in!long time no see. i'm going to be fine. i have someone here now and she is doing fine helping me even though i'm talking here. lol he won't be home for hours. little tabasco sauce is looking at me like "don't forget me". and i'm taking my computer for sure. i cannot leave all u with asshole, although i'm sure a few of u would like 5 min. with him.

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-24 12:45:57

white knight. could use ur horse to carry a few things and with the price of gas here it's most likely cheaper. lol my daughter is here now telling me what i don't need and what she'd like to have! is she setting me up here? lol i don't care. i just know i'm gone. stay in touch.

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-24 12:44:07

shemelts, i'm taking only whats needed for the next few days and then get an ex par te order and coming back. yeah, i know his capacity for pain very well. don't worry, i'll be fine.:)

Posted in MADE A PHONE CALL FINALLY! on 2008-03-24 10:47:07

thanks shemelts. i need to do this before he decides to kill me or i do it to myself and save him the trouble. hes not worth one of my fillings. some people just take up space on this earth and hes one of them.

Posted in I HATE THAT WOMAN SO BAD! on 2008-03-24 10:30:36

yeah, really bullseye. maybe we need new photos, huh? we can use these to take potshots at. thanks hon!

Posted in Set ups on 2008-03-24 09:29:48

kids have ways of finding out things. i tried not to butt in and usually things worked out. u do what u think but if it were my child (went through this 4 times) i'd let him work it out. good luck to u and him.

Posted in LOST: ONE SOUL ! FOUND: NOTHING! on 2008-03-24 09:15:33

i will.

Posted in I cant stop crying...... on 2008-03-24 03:08:18

yes, hormones are going amuk and crying is very normal. talk to ur ob/gyn and he/she should be able to help. take care sweetie.

Posted in BREAKING THE SILENCE OF THE SECRETS ! on 2008-03-24 01:39:39

i don't know what to say anymore. i truly do not.

Posted in JUST WHEN THINGS DRY UP A PUPPY PEES IN MY BED ! on 2008-03-23 18:00:06

oh and hollis i'm 5' 4". so see, i'm fat.

Posted in JUST WHEN THINGS DRY UP A PUPPY PEES IN MY BED ! on 2008-03-23 17:59:09

hollis, please don't worry about me.i'm sure its just stress and the shit of what i'm going through. i have one day up and two down. my body is just trying to adjust to my roller coaster life. i don't like doctors. thank u friend

Posted in JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THE STORM WAS OVER............ on 2008-03-23 17:55:15

happy dancing hollis, love u girl

Posted in LOOK OUT! TIDAL WAVE "AND" ALIMONY! on 2008-03-23 17:51:17

hollis, u r so funny. i'm going to get the cd so i can listen to all the songs u mentioned. yes i love anne gedde. i have been listening to celine dions miracle and she did the photo cover (i think thats what ms dion said.) looks like her work any how. love u girl.

Posted in HOW THE FIGHT STARTED on 2008-03-23 15:01:49

this is so funny. oh btw which one was he?

Posted in SMITTEN LIKE A KITTEN! AND IT FEELS SO GOOD! on 2008-03-23 14:56:06

chance777, i'll never let another one end up like my current one. how could it? this guy is good, compassionate, and the icing on the cake? hes hot!!! thanks for the comment.

Posted in SMITTEN LIKE A KITTEN! AND IT FEELS SO GOOD! on 2008-03-23 14:54:12

roe, i want this to last a long long time. its very nice to feel desired again. forgot there for awhile. thanks.

Posted in He Did What!?! Above the LAW on 2008-03-22 19:32:58

good post nubian. i'm glad it all worked out for u. take care of those precious babies. they are an extension of one of the finest women i know....YOU

Posted in ARE YOUR REALLY MY FRIEND? on 2008-03-22 19:08:48

i feel so much of this in my own life right now. i am struggling.

Posted in Beginner Quilting - Learn To Design A Yoyo Quilt on 2008-03-22 17:12:27

i have a yoyo quilt and love it. i didn't make it though. i just bought a book "quilting for dummies". it's true, i'm a dummy, but i love quilts and have collected them for years. any good sites for quilting as i am only a beginner and am planning my first project to be a few blocks and have them framed. i have a couple like that but again i bought them and didn't make them. i'm going to try though. wish me luck.

Posted in SMITTEN LIKE A KITTEN! AND IT FEELS SO GOOD! on 2008-03-22 16:55:23

its wonderful. i forgot i was anything but a punching bag and door mat. this guy makes me remember how nice it is to feel good about me. sigh thanks girl

Posted in Spring Thoughts on 2008-03-22 15:54:23

this was the most beautiful post and the picture was just the perfect ending. i look forward to reading ur words coloradodreamin. nice comments too. love this whole page today.

Posted in SMITTEN LIKE A KITTEN! AND IT FEELS SO GOOD! on 2008-03-22 15:43:13

thank u chebtastic1. i needed that a lot. i don't know if it will last or if it is intended to last but for now he makes me feel good inside and i need that so so much. i forgot what it felt like to be a woman for so long. i forgot what it felt like to feel attractive and desirable. i remember it now through this person and it feels so nice. thank u again.

Posted in JUST WHEN THINGS DRY UP A PUPPY PEES IN MY BED ! on 2008-03-22 15:37:21

i weigh about about 137 now although i'm currently losing again. divorce diet? i think so! i'm in with a group of women at work who all want to lose and i'm very competetive in things. last week i lost another 4 1/2 lbs. so i can actually deduct more from that number. yea! happy dancing!!

Posted in LOOK OUT! TIDAL WAVE "AND" ALIMONY! on 2008-03-21 17:18:27

sexykellitrent, thanks for the comment. he is an ass hole for sure. this house means a lot to me but i think i may have to just cut and run. i can't afford the costs of fixing what he has let run down and he can so for the house's sake it's probably best. :(

Posted in LOOK OUT! TIDAL WAVE "AND" ALIMONY! on 2008-03-21 16:41:55

thanks hollis. i have no idea how i got this twice. hell, one of my blogs is plenty.

Posted in LOOK OUT! TIDAL WAVE "AND" ALIMONY! on 2008-03-20 23:22:00

hollis, i love u like a sister. i did gave the rest of my evidence to my friend to keep for me. i learned the hard way (as usual). my kids said they would go to bats for me too. i hate to get them mixed up in this but i have a feeling he wants war because he wants the house and the alimony scare is just so i'd sign it over to him and i'm willing to do just that. i cannot afford to keep him and pay my own way. i just can't. i'll keep working on it hollis. thank u my dear friend.

Posted in JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THE STORM WAS OVER............ on 2008-03-20 20:21:11

i am getting stronger each day. I AM WOMAN ! HEAR ME ROAR! GRRRRRRR

Posted in MAN, DID I PISS OFF THIS COMPUTER!! on 2008-03-20 20:10:41

ellie, mine kept saying line 86 fatal error. hell did i kill line 86 too? oh man! i'm going to the big house for that one!

Posted in MAN, DID I PISS OFF THIS COMPUTER!! on 2008-03-20 20:09:12

chebtastic, i know nothing about a computer and what i do know couldn't fill a tooth. i was so confused though and thought i'd have to hold services for my blogs and fellow bloggers. RIP

Posted in MAN, DID I PISS OFF THIS COMPUTER!! on 2008-03-20 20:07:08

hollis, i actually thought i did something. i was so worried. this thing, this machine, this piece of crap! oh i better shut up it may do it again.

Posted in NEW WORD FOR YOUR DICTIONARY!! on 2008-03-20 20:04:57

i like bill. i didn't care what he did on or under his desk. he still got the job done in my book. sisters are the coolest thing.

Posted in WHAT THE FU_ _ DID YOU JUST SAY????????? on 2008-03-20 20:02:36

oh ellie! i most definitly will give tabasco a big hug from auntie ellie!

Posted in WHAT THE FU_ _ DID YOU JUST SAY????????? on 2008-03-20 19:58:25

i did have photos. i kept them in my journal. the day he got into my journal and read it he threw them out or hell he may have them hidden himself. i have some stuff mostly medical records. i'm just getting brazen as hell aren't i?

Posted in WHAT THE FU_ _ DID YOU JUST SAY????????? on 2008-03-20 19:56:34

hollis, the girlfriend?? is old news! shes been around for a few years. i think its about time they move in together. don't u think?

Posted in WHAT THE FU_ _ DID YOU JUST SAY????????? on 2008-03-20 19:55:31

CHEBTASTIC. i thought i was in the twilight zone. dodododododo if it would'nt have been so pathetic it would've been funny. oh! it is funny! lol he is such an ass.

Posted in WHAT THE FU_ _ DID YOU JUST SAY????????? on 2008-03-20 19:53:35

quickcat. thank u for saying ur sorry but u didn't do anything darlin. the spouse is just the names i called him in this post. IN SPADES!

Posted in You know you are an EXTREME Redneck when on 2008-03-20 08:38:38

let me see according to number 2 my jeep is worth.......what 54.78? i'll take it. lmoa

Posted in LEAVING THE PAIN BEHIND............. on 2008-03-19 17:39:17

i don't think i'm anywhere near forgiveness with the spouse. it never seems to stop. i try to go to a place of peace and then when i return WHACK! he gets me head on again. it's just too much. any ideas my friend?

Posted in Would you EVER cheat on your spouse? on 2008-03-19 17:23:46

absolutely i would. i'd be scared but i would in a heartbeat. if you read my blogs (i'm not going into detail here) you'll see why and wonder why i never did before. i want a chance to have something special in my life yet and will never have it with the man that dwells in this house.

Posted in JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THE STORM WAS OVER............ on 2008-03-19 16:10:47

chebtastic1. out of the mouths of our youth. after a comment like that i have to admit we are raising our youth right. score one for the youth of america.

Posted in FRIENDSHIP DOOR IS LOCKED AND BOLTED! NO ENTRY! on 2008-03-19 16:08:32

my loyal hollis. you are the best thing since sliced bread (my favorite saying).

Posted in NEW WORD FOR YOUR DICTIONARY!! on 2008-03-19 16:06:56

my sister is a nut but i love her so much. she seems to have or thinks she has the answer for everything. big sisters are like that! yeah they are!

Posted in JUST WHEN I THOUGHT THE STORM WAS OVER............ on 2008-03-18 22:40:05

that is absolutely the best of the best comments i have ever recieved. i'd make a donation but i'm in the red. thanks chance 777.

Posted in I Tipped the Scale on 2008-03-18 15:23:31

sweetie, i am so happy that all is well and you and baby are healthy. :)

Posted in Do You Fart In Bed????? on 2008-03-18 08:34:46

lmao omg that is hysterical!!!!!!!!

Posted in TOBASCO SAUCE IS IN THE HOUSE!! on 2008-03-18 04:32:37

toby? how sweet! i think i will! thanks

Posted in NEW WORD FOR YOUR DICTIONARY!! on 2008-03-17 20:22:26

i know! i lmao when she sent me this. she has as answer for everything in my life and always has. lol

Posted in Thoughts on Thoughts on 2008-03-17 19:47:37

excellent blog, although i may have swilled once or twice.:(

Posted in ROAD RAGE OR AM I JUST PISSED AT THE WORLD? on 2008-03-17 19:38:17

hollis, i hope you're right. i seem to fly off the handle really easy these days at the dumbest shit. not my little munchin riley or my littlest munchkin TS but just stupid stuff that shouldn't matter at all and myself mostly for doing stupid shit and thinking stupid shit and just generally being not the brightest bulb in the box.

Posted in ROAD RAGE OR AM I JUST PISSED AT THE WORLD? on 2008-03-17 19:35:15

ellie,i hope you see the pics. hes a cutie!

Posted in MY REMOTE CONTROL HAS BEEN COMPROMISED! on 2008-03-17 19:34:00

he is the new man in my life hollis. he stays with me constantly and cries when i'm not there! maybe a needy man?? but i'm enjoying him immensely!

Posted in JUST WHEN THINGS DRY UP A PUPPY PEES IN MY BED ! on 2008-03-17 19:32:12

hollis, my loyal follower and friend: how did i know you would say the things you did? because it is so you! i love it.the divorce is coming diet? hell, where was this diet when i weighed 290?? thanks my sweet friend.

Posted in EVEN HEATHENS LIKE ME CAN BE REACHED! on 2008-03-17 19:29:42

hollis, i know this. it's really strange that i was talking about the shrine of st elizabeth ann seton today. i just recieved an email (from a friend that obviously thought i already knew)that one of the sisters i loved so dearly just suddenly died. she was so precious to me and a very good friend.i will miss her terribly.

Posted in TOBASCO SAUCE IS IN THE HOUSE!! on 2008-03-17 18:31:37

i was gathering names and tabasco came up and then i saw a bottle of tobasco sauce at the same time. i'm a chef and i thought "ok TOBASCO SAUCE it is". dumb story but it is absolutely the truth.

Posted in He wont stop hitting me 3:26AM on 2008-03-17 15:58:09

this sounds like nightmare on elm street movie. it's really creepy. but it also sounds like some of my own nightmare and i don't have to be asleep to have it.

Posted in JUST WHEN THINGS DRY UP A PUPPY PEES IN MY BED ! on 2008-03-17 15:46:25

first off i love your logo. i am still in the bonding stage with tabasco sauce here. i agree with all you said except the quiet thing (for now at least). TS doesn't know how to be quiet yet. he just cries when i leave the room to pee. in the mornings when i put on my makeup i take him into the hallway so he can see where i am and what i'm doing. he is a baby for sure. but hes growing on me.

Posted in Two men, two lives, two reputations on 2008-03-17 11:00:35

i listen to your story and have seen all the movies and own the majority of them. i am catholic and have read a lot. i always wonder where the rest of the apostles were on that day. you know where peter was, denying christ. you know where judas was, regretting what he did and then hanging himself. there is always a young apostle with mary and mary magdallen (spelling not right)and i am never knew who it represented. but where were the other 9? scattered among the crowd? hiding? mingling? curious i supose!

Posted in 2 questions - unrealted on 2008-03-17 10:49:15

i personally like hearing nice things. if you've read my blogs, you know that hasn't happened much in my life. i envy women that hear things daily or at least weekly or annually. it's important to stimulate the senses and i feel hearing things can make or break you. i've heard bad stuff and it certainly affects me so why wouldn't good things? why is it also that the bad override the good? are we so immune to hearing nice things that when someone tells us we're "shit" it's easier to believe than hearing from someone else that we're "beautiful"? we should think about that the next time we're tempted to say something negative vs positive. the bad has stayed with me forever while the good stuff rolls right off. sad commentary for me.

Posted in IF I WAS A COOK on 2008-03-17 10:20:07

i am a cook. and i do need books and i deserve a second look. i could teach you.:)

Posted in Blood Splashed Pages on 2008-03-17 07:04:22

i like this blog very much. don't compare what problems you have to anyone elses. if they are enough to bother you then they are enough to talk over with someone. you are whats important here and what you think and feel. always remember that chance777. :)

Posted in THE WORLD'S EASIEST QUIZ (Passing requires only 4 on 2008-03-17 06:51:55

got two! gggrrrr

Posted in The Role of stepmother part 2. The wedding day and on 2008-03-16 03:21:06

a real piece of work huh?

Posted in The Husband Store on 2008-03-16 03:14:27

good one! do they have sales? 2 for 1?

Posted in I Hope You Dance.......... on 2008-03-16 03:11:22

beautiful post hollis. i just love reading you things.

Posted in The things I couldn't tell you on 2008-03-16 03:08:23

i truly don't know what to say. i can't understand. i can't give you faith. i can't tell you it's going to get better. i don't know the answers. what i can do is tell you i would like to be here if you need to bitch, curse, complain, or whatever. i will listen to anything you need to vent. my thoughts are with you.

Posted in ROAD RAGE OR AM I JUST PISSED AT THE WORLD? on 2008-03-15 20:17:51

as soon as i can. he is cute. cannot wait til u see him.

Posted in Side Note on 2008-03-15 17:48:21

i had to have my knee replaced a few years ago and they told me the same thing. i was not a happy camper. a woman needs a few things in some instances and shaving is one.

Posted in Stalker on 2008-03-15 17:37:23

sort of creepy. don't want to be the negative vote here but be careful. this guy bothers me even if he does sound reletively harmless. i'm sure jack the ripper had his good points too.

Posted in No Mistress, But down in the bleachers! on 2008-03-15 17:30:07

i am so glad you did it girl. whooo hoooo! maybe foty (when he was staring) was remembering the good times and realizes just what he lost. success is the best revenge. you go girl!

Posted in WHIPPED AND SCARED SHITLESS ! on 2008-03-15 15:44:43

hollis and nubian, she did say it all didn't she? amazing what the power of one can do. i'm so fortunate to have the power of one and a thousand too if i need.

Posted in The wedding, the ex & the girlfriend on 2008-03-15 15:35:20

good luck at your event. most exes aren't know for doing the right thing, so hang tough sweetie. i'm right behind you (with my baseball bat). please tell asap what happens.

Posted in Beautiful Purple Panties on 2008-03-13 21:09:08

excellent nubian. i want to meet your girls. they are so sweet. purple panties on her head so people could see them! i love it. i have a couple pair of cute ones too. think it would work for me?

Posted in WHIPPED AND SCARED SHITLESS ! on 2008-03-13 18:50:01

ellie2008, codreamin is very good isn't she? i'll try to follow the advice and make some calls. heartley house is our local shelter and they can help i'm sure. thanks again. it feels that is all i say to people anymore.

Posted in WHIPPED AND SCARED SHITLESS ! on 2008-03-13 18:48:01

codreamin. you should have a shingle hanging on your name and charging for the 'GOOD ADVICE' you give. after reading your comment i feel better, not great but definitely better. i will do as you suggested and call heartley house (our shelter). hell, they know me there anyways. thank you for your prayers and thoughts.

Posted in Two guys in a bar on 2008-03-13 00:18:50

funny

Posted in Bagel Bites, Wine, Lastlastkl, Beer, Greenery.mmmm on 2008-03-13 00:12:32

you are so funny. loved the tag words and since my name was in the title i was a bit concerned. but everything was ok. yes you are a funny, funny guy.

Posted in WHIPPED AND SCARED SHITLESS ! on 2008-03-12 22:03:46

chebtastic1 thanks for your support. i'm really feeling panicy over this whole thing. i feel like i'm living in the middle of a panic attack. i'm restless and stressed and just uptight as hell. i am trying to relax and just keep going from room to room perplexed as hell. i don't like this at all.

Posted in Is she kidding???? on 2008-03-12 21:55:33

why is it always the woman's fault? why can't the guy just be a big jerk? if women these days don't hold down a full time job, take care of a house and kids, the husband's "needs", and do all the crap thats expected of her what? does that make her responsible for some ass to cheat? what happened to loyalty? or monogamy? or just plain respect? why does it fall back on the woman not fulfilling his "needs". give me a break! ALERT: pissed off woman here!!

Posted in Not a great choice on 2008-03-12 20:37:07

i agree with kp. either way it hurts like crap. the thing with us is it's private. i cannot imagine going through this in the public eye. how alwful for them and to stand there beside "their man", would be just total humiliating. shame and pain shouldn't be for the public, as such (here it is a choice to tell or not tell). i cannot even go there in my mind what these women have had to endure at the hands of their spouses.

Posted in come on guys on 2008-03-12 20:07:05

good thoughts are with you!

Posted in ONE GIANT LEAP FOR ME! on 2008-03-12 19:59:24

zypvashna, alreadyjaded,nubiam, and ellie2008, what a group you are. i'm not having second thoughts but i posted a blog tonight and then reread it and god am i scared! pray for me. i really need it.

Posted in WHIPPED AND SCARED SHITLESS ! on 2008-03-12 19:33:57

chebtastic1, i am just so afraid. i've never done anything like this ever. i've always had someone in the wings (so to speak). never been alone in my life at all. never had to be the responsible one or i should say the sole responsible one. i just don't think i can take bill collectors, and foreclosure and shit being cut off and just so much. i'm afraid i'll just sit here and die.

Posted in Girlfriends Sticking Together on 2008-03-12 19:18:55

this is so funny. blind date got his married ass kicked. love it just love it.

Posted in I WAS WAITING FOR THE PUNCH AND ........... on 2008-03-12 14:58:21

easytosay, i follow your blogs like you must follow mine. soul sisters? maybe! thanks for the prayers. i'm like a weeble. i wobble but i won't fall down.

Posted in I WAS WAITING FOR THE PUNCH AND ........... on 2008-03-12 14:56:41

hollis, girlfriend i knew you'd be here. it's strange how i care about people i don't even know. just words and pictures and these people become my family and my lifeline. you are at the lead.

Posted in I WAS WAITING FOR THE PUNCH AND ........... on 2008-03-12 14:54:39

coloradodreamin. thanks for the support. i didn't know so many people were pulling for me. it feels good to stand on my own.

Posted in SPOUSAL BLACKMAIL? IS IT ILLEGAL? on 2008-03-12 14:50:24

alreadyjaded. my kids love me for sure. they proved it the last two days. i'm glad they're mine. last laugh is on the spouse.

Posted in SPOUSAL BLACKMAIL? IS IT ILLEGAL? on 2008-03-12 14:49:03

hollis my girl, you were right. my kids love me unconditionally. they are purely pissed at their sperm donor father for putting me through this all this time. thank you again.

Posted in THE QUILT THAT FRIENDS BUILT! on 2008-03-12 01:32:45

sir knight, you are definitely a patch on mine. it look like your logo,nice one.

Posted in Im scared to sleep on 2008-03-12 01:29:18

sounds like a major nightmare or panic attack. no i don't think you're crazy. if you are then the rest of us are too.

Posted in I WAS WAITING FOR THE PUNCH AND ........... on 2008-03-12 01:25:16

candimarie: what a sweet name. thank you for dancing with me. my feet are just happy dancing all over the place.

Posted in I WAS WAITING FOR THE PUNCH AND ........... on 2008-03-11 22:26:26

isn't happy dancing fun. happy dancing together.....thank you otherewoman

Posted in Why Older Chicks RULE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! on 2008-03-11 21:30:37

this was one of the greatest blogs ever.

Posted in ONE GIANT LEAP FOR ME! on 2008-03-11 20:16:08

fancie, my new friend thank you. i feel so much better. my kids are pretty great and i feel good knowing i had a major hand in that. smile :)

Posted in ONE GIANT LEAP FOR ME! on 2008-03-11 20:14:47

hollis my dear dear friend, i love you too. and i like a nice sweet wine thank you. boonesboro at 1.98 is just fine, i'm not picky.lol

Posted in Putting in a call for all thoughts and prayers. on 2008-03-11 12:12:04

much love and prayers for annie and you too kp. much much much

Posted in judgement on 2008-03-11 12:05:19

i wrote a blog on a local place here. the grotto of lourdes. look it up on the web. it's in thurmont maryland. thats where i go to see Mary. this place has saved me more that once. wish i could send you a little piece of this heaven.

Posted in ONE GIANT LEAP FOR ME! on 2008-03-11 12:01:09

bjm1 thanks and i will gladly accept that compliment graciously. they were good kids and are great adults. i love them dearly.

Posted in HE MADE HIS BED, NOW LET HIM LAY IN IT! on 2008-03-11 11:32:55

thanks bullseye. he is that! "sigh"

Posted in Dad's in the media on 2008-03-11 08:28:14

i love some of the shows you mentioned. my dad has been gone for many years and he was the glue that held our family together. my mom is very ill and not going to be with us too very much longer. my kids have washed their collective hands of their father. he is cold, cruel and totally indifferent to them and their families. at thanksgiving they finally just told me that they are done with him. what could i say? being a parent is hard work but the rewards are immense. i think dads are great too.

Posted in I gave up and CRIED! on 2008-03-11 08:16:48

human contact. you need human contact. anything. i do know what you're talking about. thats why i'm getting a puppy. hes not human but its a warm blooded breathing thing and i won't be so lonely again. your ex needs to go to family counseling to get his shit together. he needs parenting skills which he doesn't currently have it seems. love your kids enough for two and you keep them grounded. you're doing great.

Posted in The little engine is trying. on 2008-03-11 08:04:30

i'm right behind you little engine. i'm the caboose you see. keep on keepin on.

Posted in THE QUILT THAT FRIENDS BUILT! on 2008-03-11 07:54:07

hollis my friend, you are the very essence of my quilt. i have quilts on my walls, over banisters, beds, chairs even on top of a couple tables. and now i have a quilt on and around my heart.

Posted in LONLINESS IS A FOUR LETTER WORD! on 2008-03-11 07:51:31

hollis my friend, BUTT-MUNCH? i think i like that better than ass hole or at least as much. that could be a contest here. good names for asshole/buttmunch. omg would i get some hits on that one. lol

Posted in WOMAN'S INTUITION AND CHANGING DYNAMICS ! on 2008-03-11 07:49:11

hollis, that movie IS MY LIFES STORY. i've seen it so many times. it is like watching a mirror image of my life. i cry so hard everytime. the only difference is i have no family to go and live with. but i am working on it. thank you.

Posted in A GORGEOUS FACE ON THE MEND :) on 2008-03-11 07:43:03

i thought tac was a girl too for a very long time until one i day i got curious and bam! a guy!. he has great reading though.

Posted in Connecting the dots on 2008-03-10 20:52:04

thats funny. lol

Posted in its all over on 2008-03-10 20:46:38

i'm sorry for you. children are very smart. they are not the gullible little creatures the adults of the world think they are. they are smart and bright and know whats going on. just love her and things will be fine.

Posted in Days of our FOTY on 2008-03-10 20:42:19

i am having my own trauma right now but when i read your blogs i forget mine for a few minutes. i wish i could help you. life is so f---ing hard. it's too much work.

Posted in 7 reasons murder is not so bad on 2008-03-10 20:34:33

i really like this blog. i'm going to save it for sure. i'll use it for my 'not guilty by reason of insanity plea'. i'm just about there, truly i am.

Posted in THE QUILT THAT FRIENDS BUILT! on 2008-03-10 19:32:26

yadokta, this is what i'm saying. i need this outlet very much. this person doesn't seem to understand this at all. i'm going to keep blogging and i hope i keep getting comments. not nasty ones though. ugh!

Posted in hate, hate on 2008-03-10 18:14:10

are you living with my spouse? sure sounds like you are in my head. anger goes through me like a knife. i hate this man that is known as the spouse. hate him.

Posted in THE QUILT THAT FRIENDS BUILT! on 2008-03-10 18:06:08

oh, i love comments. i didn't like the one this person wrote on another's blog. hell, i welcome them.

Posted in And another thing on FOTY on 2008-03-10 16:37:57

i take my little guy with me everywhere. if i step out for 2 seconds hes there because it only takes 1 second for someone to grab him. he is surgically hooked to me when we go anywhere. if (god forbid)anything were to happen to him it will not be on my watch. we are there watchers and protectors and voices until.........

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