Thoughts.com Blogs - CHILD # 3........HEATHER ......

This is the third installment of "karen's kids".......lol.....I have to finish this today bc Mother's Day is almost over and I have two kids left here dangling......lol
   HEATHER CHRISTINE........so named bc the doctor had told me I would never have another child after my son was born and 9 miscarriages......I made a 'deal' with God and said if He permitted me another child I would name her/him after His son ........He gave me three more.......smile......Hows that for a payoff???
    This had to be the ultimate pregnancy......I mean if there was a textbook 'perfect' pregnancy this was it for sure......i never got sick.....i was feeling great the entire time......i was wonderful.......AND she was born to the day she was predicted.......this kid knew what she was doing from conception......lol
  Heather was my little pixie.....she always wanted her hair cut in a 'pixie' cut and so looked the part......not that i'm prejudiced but God she's cute....smile...she had the most outgoing personality and just loved to talk to anyone that would listen and most likely to those that didn't too. she was my precious baby....the first grand daughter.....i absolutely knew she was a girl from the very moment i knew she was inside me. I wouldn't even discuss a boys name.....no way. i bought all pink and girly things and her room was done in girls colors and it was beautiful. people would wonder why i didn't go more neutral but i stood firm.......it was a girl and i knew it......AND SHE WAS....!
She weighed in at 6lb. 9 1/2 oz (the exact as jenni) and was 18" long......she was in a hurry to be born and decided not to wait til i got to delivery and popped out in the hallway.....oops.....lol...but she saved me so much money.... i wasn't charged for delivery room services on the hospital bill and the dr took a huge chunk off his fees since it was me and the nurse that did all the work.....good going Heather....mommy loves you...lol
   In school she got interested in sports......(all my kids were sooo athletic) and she was on the same team as my other two girls.....she was an outstanding shortstop......omg....she could play for the pros....and from what i hear some of those teams could use a good shortstop.....smile. she also during her school years became interested in FFA (future farmers of america) even though she was considered a 'city girl'. she joined initially to socialize with other students and learn but soon became a huge fan of the organization. she became an officer in her school and then county and then statewide.....she was good and knowledgeable and people knew the 'city girl' knew her stuff.
  She has and still loves horses....omg....she would have a horse farm if it would be up to her.....but in her junior year she decided to enter an essay contest within the FFA. The org. each year would give an animal away.....a calf, pig, or sheep to be raised by the student. This year they were giving away a horse. Heather about died when she heard this. "where would you keep a horse" I asked her when she told me about this. 'if i find a place and pay for it myself, can i enter the contest?' she replied. what was i going to say? 'OK' was my answer even though i knew it would be impossible for her to do this.......little did i know the extent this child would go to own her own horse and to keep it close........determination is a wonderful thing.
   She looked all over the place and finally found a farm about 1/2 mile from our home and went and spoke to the owner. They had a barn (if thats what you wanted to call it) and if she would fix it up she could have it....FREE. she worked on this barn night and day, day and night, she had her friends help when they could and soon the 'barn' actually looked like a barn. she found an old wooden box of some size and painted it with her name and the name of the horse she wanted so badly. she went out and bought 'things' for the horse and was all ready for the addition.....the thing was they hadn't decided who was getting the horse yet. i was sure she was letting herself in for a terrible let down and it would break her heart. she became like i did when i was carrying her and wouldn't let anyone deter me from fixing up her room in anything but feminine style....she was fierce in her belief and soon i was believing too. the night came for the decision.....there was a potluck dinner and then the awards and then.............the decision. we sat there and i was just on pins and needles......'we have read all the essays and there is one that stood out in our minds.......we think this student is exceptional in her commitment to the FFA and we have decided to award the horse to HEATHER CHRISTINE'.....she did it....she did it all on her own.....she believed enough in her dream to make it come true and it did.....what a girl! the name NOVA was given to her horse and she loved that animal so much it was nothing short of heaven to watch her with it. Heather got a job to 'support' her new child.....lol...... bc she found out it wasn't cheap even with a free barn.
   During her senior she met Jason......now he wasn't exactly my dream of what a 'boyfriend' should be but i had learned not to judge a book by its cover. he was good to her....never spoke a mean word and seemed attentive to her and they fell in love.......
After they graduated they became engaged and planned their future and a beautiful wedding. Heather found out that a wedding, an apartment, car payments, and the cost of living left little time or money for Nova and she had to let her go. She looked for just the perfect place for her and found a wonderful horse farm not too far from where they were planning to live.......I never knew til that day just how much she actually loved that animal.......it was like she was giving back a child.......my heart broke in two for her that day and i will always have that picture in my head of that sad day. Nova died the following year and i think part of Heather did too.
   Heather and Jason married in a lovely wedding and she was a gorgeous bride. Again the favors and things were made by her and her sisters. they made it a very special day. i have a photo that was taken that day that i cherish above all others i have and i hope to post it one day.....it was a photo of all three dancing with their guys and they are all smiling and looking towards the camera and every time i look at it i just feel such a sense of pride my heart swells with the love i feel.
   Heather got a job as a data processor and soon started to move up the corporate ladder. she is doing very well in her current position and is taking college courses to go even further.
They found out they were going to have a baby and were so elated. when they went to the dr he informed them that it was twins.....omg.....could anything else good happen to this couple???? it was an invetro pregnancy but it took first time and they were having a baby and thats all that counted......they lost one twin and prayed the entire time she would carry the other....needless to say jocelyn peeked out and she is a heather look a like for sure.....big blue eyes, blonde hair and that 'pixie grin' i have so loved all her life.
Heather has accomplished so much in her life and has overcome personal trials and pains......she became pregnant again few months ago but miscarried and hasn't been herself since....i mean she is still Heather but this took something from her.......she told me 'mom, how did you bear to lose so many?'. the truth is i didn't.....it was so sad and painful everytime it happened.....i had to bury so much inside and she and i cried for the children that would never be....those that are angels in our lives now.....she is indeed her mother's daughter......and God how proud I am of her.

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