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today on my mail i recieved two emails from very sweet people. i got the courage to email them yesterday and lo and behold i got back. i want to thank them if they should read this blog. i have a dilemma more of an issue i guess. let me see where i can begin! i have four siblings. i am in the middle. we all got along and things were pretty normal. my older brother found out that my mother (who suffers from dimentia) up and gave her house (valued @ over $300,000) to my youngest brother. she never discussed it with the rest of us and we were all pretty badly hurt by this. i am angry with my brother because he didn't say no, that wouldn't be fair to the rest but no he just held out his hand for the keys. it has definitely brought up some anger and bad feelings. now he is selling everything in the house. he called me two weeks ago to see if there was anything i may have wanted of mom's for sentimental reasons or value and i went up to see. i got there early and was glad i was alone when i went in because there was nothing left in the house. no furniture, no antiques, nothing but the junk that no one would want. i literally needed a place to sit down for the shear shock of seeing the place gutted of everything and there wasn't even a chair. my daughters came later as did my brother and i was embarassed for them because there was nothing for them to get to remember their grandmother with. it was all i could do to sit and "chit chat" with my brother. i thought my heart would burst with the anger and hurt i was feeling. i never wanted to be wealthy off my parents deaths. i am a pretty simple woman. but i do live in a house that is in need of major repairs. my roof leaks into the bedroom, my toilet leaks into a bucket in the kitchen as does the shower that leaks into another. my porch is so bad i do not let my grandson even walk on it. and these are only a few things. i also live with a man who has done things to me that are so abusive and disgusting i am not even going to go into them. i knew i would never win thelottery but i figured i would have an inheiritance someday. i knew i would not be a millionaire but would have enough to take care of things around my house and maybe get rid of one deadbeat spouse. when i found out about my brother and my parents home and now the fact that he is selling everything (except what he has seen fit to take or give away)i realized i will always be in this muck of an existence. i will always have no more than i do right now and my house will eventually be condemned. i have kept all this inside and figure it would work itself out and i'd get over it. i thought that all the sacrificing i did in the last several years would somehow be fixed. my mother doesn't have much longer to be on this world and it breaks my heart to see her like i do. she always wanted to be able to do something for her kids. she said it made her feel good that she knew that after she was gone we'd each have something to make life a little easier. i don't know how to handle this anger and rage and hurt i am feeling. any one with any answers please comment.
    Posted by lastblastkl on 2007-11-29 20:16:34 | Rating: | Views: 139
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We don't talk to my Aunt and Cousins because of a simular situation....
Posted by  mrsdragonseal  on 2008-02-11 12:25:20 
  
My heart goes out to you. You will be in my prayers, I do believe in the power of prayer.Have faith, that good things will happen for you in this life, and certainly the next.
Posted by  circe  on 2008-04-02 19:27:58 
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