Taking a look around me, I realise life is not giving me that rosey glow that I used to have.

The last week or so, has shaken me up, with people saying one thing and doing another or refusing to take responsibility for themselves and there own actions, I have very little time for anyone else and I guess, because my focus is on the outside world, looking in, makes me feel everything is such a complete shambles.

But, in hindsight, and giving myself a bit of space for perspective its not unsalvagable, if I just take it one baby step at a time, get used to that one tiny step and then move onto another one, that is all that it takes.  I think the hardest thing to do is, not to curl up in a ball and give up, that would be the easiest option and the hardest option, because it would mean I would be in this hole longer then necessary.

So, I have been writing a list of things to do, here is the starting point.

1/ Find a new place to live
2/ Spring clean room
3/ Emalgimate my journals into a story and continue to write the story
4/ Meditation x twice a day
5/ Detox diet
6/ Drink 2 litres a day
6/ Eat a healthy diet
7/ Go out on day trips
8/ Read angel/fairy cards every day
9/ Read the bible every day
10/ Pray every day
11/ Stop watching tv
12/ 30 minutes exercise per day
13/ Organise holiday
14/ Write a despcription of what you want to live in

Right now, I am just in a space that really is feeling like shit, and I need to concentrate on moving forward and growing and learning and escaping the shit I am in.  So, this is where I stand right now, and I aim to improve it, one baby step at a time so I can achieve all that I set out to do.