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Toxic Me
So Whitters blog title inspired me to, ahem, borrow it with a twist.  I don't know what's in the air lately or if it's just a combination of things, but man-I am really not happy lately.  There is really nothing to be UNhappy about, I just can't get happy.  I'm blah.  I'm sick of myself and I just hate me this way.

I think it's due to the weather, the winter, the sucky job, the lack of a permanent job, etc.  I got my check today and it barely covered the boxes of band-aids I had to buy for the paper cuts I suffered.  Ok, so that's a bit of an exaggeration, but that's how I'm feeling.  I have been throwing resumes everywhere around here for the last 3-4 months, and NOTHING.  God.  Am I THAT undesirable? 

It's pathetic.  I took a wrong turn today and burst into tears.  No joke.  Wrong turn one block from where I was supposed to turn and I cried.  Well, sobbed more like.  Then I didn't make it to the DMV before it closed to get my new license and lo-and-behold busted into tears again.  What the hell is wrong with me?  And the more I think about how irritated I am with myself the more irritated I get.  Do you see now why I feel "toxic"?
Posted by ladiegodiva on 2008-01-09 22:49:42 | Rating: | Views: 72


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Posted by
Mandie142
on 2008-01-09 23:47:03
 
I'm with ya girl! I really think it's the weather that has all of us down. It sucks. It doesn't help that you are having job search problems. That cannot be enjoyable at all.

I love ya though...did that help?! *Hug*
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2008-01-10 02:12:09
 
I think the Church Lady is rubbing off on you. hehe
Kidding.
We all have times like these.
Try to remember this:
Life is a contrast.
Without our rotten days,
our good days could not be noticed.
We are our yin to our yang.
Just as darkness is contrasted by the light.
Good times, contrast the bad times, in our lives.
May tomorrow be a good one, and know, it will be really good, looking back on today.
Peace.
 
 

Posted by
Mamacita925
on 2008-01-10 10:10:32
 
That damn church lady...

I've had days like that, actually justthe other day, this morning would have been like that but thankfully I got a life-line phone call that made me laugh.

I hope you feel better!!
 
 

Posted by
Twarg
on 2008-01-10 11:41:27
 
Sounds like life is just getting to you a bit and it's resulting in a build up of stress. I suggest you take a holiday somewhere, even if its just for the weekend. Get back and then tackle life some more.
 
 

Posted by
bullseye
on 2008-01-10 12:44:12
 
good luck in your job search LG.... things will look up for you.
 
 

Posted by
DouglasMB
on 2008-01-10 12:51:48
 
When you get flustered... and you think you are going to cry, do something for me. I know this will sound odd, but trust me it works, I have people close to me that I have doing this and it helps. **don't do it in a moving vehicle** lol I had to add that

Close your eyes open one of your hands palm up...
With your other hand trace each finger lightly and even your thumb. And as you trace each finger, think of something that makes you smile, or happy. the smell of your mans favorite smell good, the memory of making brownies with your mom, just anything that leads to pleasant thoughts. It will only take a min and it sound weird. But make sure you do the mental thing with the physical thing, it helps to keep your mind from wondering. After you do that should only take a min or two at the most. Just breath in deep and open your eyes, and try to laugh at how silly the situation was that mad you upset.

It's not much but I hope it helps.
 
 

Posted by
olp76
on 2008-01-11 14:58:03
 
Aww, LG it's the weather...Try to take some Vitamin D, that's what I'm doin'....the lack of sun etc...I'm wishin' you the best babee, We are here for each other on thoughts...thoughts is very therapic...
 
 


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