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Here I am, sick again. What's gotten into my head this time? Some type of flu accompanied with nightmares that leave me feeling lost and alone and empty. I dream that Aaron is dead and I am alone. Then I dream that he is gone and I can't find him. Then I dream that I am the one dying and no one is there to care. What does it all mean? Anything? Nothing? Everything?
Now that the fever is broke and I have managed to stand up long enough to shower, I am back to square one of complete exhaustion. And I still have not convinced myself that I am not alone. I think it is my worst fear. Not being needed. That and that this empty feeling will not leave me.
I am scared, I am sad. I want Aaron to come home now. I want him to tell me he will never leave me. I want him to hold me and make me feel connected. So I came here to find my friends-but no one is home. And here I am, completely alone. |
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Posted by ladiegodiva on 2008-03-07 15:52:57 | Rating: | Views: 59
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awwwwwwwww <3 I hope you get to feelin better...You're never alone....
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Posted by Mamacita925
on 2008-03-07 15:56:27
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You know that I'm always here for ya! I "heart" you! :)
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Posted by Mandie142
on 2008-03-10 09:43:36
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