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| Saving Me |
You know those places in life where you have exactly two options? And both options are really just another version of each other. Both options leave you either walking away from something (making you feel like a failure) or staying (and hating yourself even more for being so goddamn spineless). I am so there.
I'm in this lit up room all alone. There are no doors or windows or other people, but I know exactly where I am. Alone but safe. But then they shut off the lights and put other people in with you and your problem isn't just yours anymore. It's theirs too. And so every move I make I have a million different reasons and ways to measure the pros and cons of my possible move, my possible escape. I just want to be free. But now there are so many others wrapped up hang on to me that it's not strictly about me any longer. It is about a much larger picture.
And then. I am alone again in a dark room with no windows and two doors. Each door is a decision I could make. On one side of the door certain people will stand. Beyond the other....there may be no one to greet me.
What do I have to gain? My soul. My will. My spine. My happiness. Everything that makes me ME.
What do I have to lose? Everything.
Which door do you choose?
Them or you?
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Posted by ladiegodiva on 2009-05-05 21:05:27 | Rating: | Views: 67
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