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I have a problem dealing with conflict when it comes to guys, maybe it's because of Travis. Everything with Dyllon i just blow up and i avoid the hard questions and i act just like Travis used to. Now im becoming everything i resent about him. Thats me now - something i hate. So much is going on i just... can't deal with it. I want to avoid it. I want it to not exist. I don't want guy drama, this is fucking why i'm not in a relationship... the goddamn problems and issues. I'm not going to do this with Dyllon. Forget it. I like myself the way i am without serious guys in my life. I'm fun, happy and smart. Nothing like what i feel right now, this isnt me and i dont want anything to do with the "me" right now. I am strong, independent, and i'll be the career driven girl. I am okay with that. I will be the girl in the suit with my business degree out to conquer the world (As stupid as that sounds). I have my friends and i don't need the mushy problems. That will be my life and i can handle it. I've been in love. I have lived that life already, and i dont want to be hurt again. I refuse to be hurt again. No one should have that kind of control over my emotions. We planned to get married and have kids and we lived together. That is good enough for me. Love is such a beautiful thing and i only have room in my heart to love my family and friends and how Travis used to be. I can love myself and that is enough for me.
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Posted by lackofcolor on 2007-12-10 00:39:03 | Rating: | Views: 110
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Aw, thank you so much scarboroughfair. I think that being a parent would be so hard, especially trying to teach those kinds of things. Keep showing her lots of love and support like my parents have. She will learn that she is an amazing, strong person with a great family and wont put up with guys giving her shit. The best of luck to you two.
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Posted by lackofcolor
on 2007-12-10 01:17:31
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smiles, good for you - hug, you stay strong
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Posted by kentlass
on 2007-12-10 01:35:48
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Yes - stay strong - stay in charge of your life. Power to you.
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Posted by 2rivers
on 2007-12-11 02:11:59
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