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| Depression's Game |
As my skies turn gray
the thoughts escaping through my mind
still unclear like yesterday
I drive alone
heading home
a place not my own
where I'm just barley fitting in
the past is too close for comfort
creepin up on me
a disease of the mind
a lingering disturbance
a lacking of confidence
an uncertainty
just like a theif hiding in the shadows
waiting for the open door
created by one small doubt of myself
I'm struggling to release
those chains binding me
because I have my days
where memory of them fades away
and then at the slightest, unexpected moment
I fell them tighten internally
The battles I fought
for years on my own
one girl
fighting against an army unknown
Sometimes I held strong
Sometimes I had help
Sometimes I had to retreat
now it's all too evident
each attempt to finish the war
was unsuccessful
I sit and wonder
am I ready to come out of hiding
and strike out the entire enemy
Or am I finding myself ready
to get comfortable behind this wall
put an end to it all
forcing the enemy to retreat
and move on someplace new
leaving me safe to rise up,
this time above the anguish
floating so gently
with peace of mind.
Fact Is...
I know I won't stay up long
my heavy heart will bring me down
back to my hiding place
not so comfortable anymore
now I'm laying with a nail through my chest
holding me to the floor
while I watch my mistakes flash
through the darkness beind my eyes
and I'm forced to realize
this wasn't a CHOOSE YOUR OWN ENDING story.
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Posted by l3arning2lov3 on 2009-02-24 22:11:52 | Rating: | Views: 48
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