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OMG! i shouldn't have to deal with this...
my modelling agency just found out im 16, so i was struck off the books, but one of my photographers thinks im too good to lose so is getting me a fake ID :)
im still going to london for an erotic art shoot, kinda like a silloetted version of the wedding night :)
everyone else just thinks that im going to london for a weding shoot, Im not lying just giving a lack of information.
i stay 2 nights in a 4 star hotel with food and drinks all paid for :)
My supposed "boyfriend" and me dont get on at all, im staying away more and more...
I have no money till this shoot and cant afford rent right now so his mom (my landlady) are both getting on my back about it.
Hes still treating me like his little slave, cooking and cleaning, so much i dont have time to do my own room then i get stick for not having a clean bedroom and i keep explaining its cause im too busy tidying his room and the rest of the house. GRRRRRRRRRRR...
still going to america :) had a little arguement with John though cause i offended him alittle when i made a joke about a rather low cut dress i have eeeeep :/
but thats sorted.
now.
the new story....
Theres this guy Tom, bloody hell he's tall, 6 foot 7inches.... i met him through a friend and ever since ive been making the most of my free life and having huge party weekends away, im going away tonight actually, and saturday, and sunday!
we go to these things called Rigs, they are like illegal techno raves, in the middle of the countryside in abandoned barns and tractor sheds. they are freakin awesome, the only problem i guess is all the people who are high in the sky on god knows what. I would never try hard drugs, haha i get high on a single cigarette, cause of the nicotine rush :s im a lightweight, but cheap to keep :) not like that, but i dont need much money spent to get drunk or wasted.
i have to really try and lose some weight ive gotten well podgey lately :( as soon as my tongue healed up from the piercing i went on a HUGE binge and now feel really bad....
but yeah this tom guy, he likes me i know he does, hes said, and i knwo he wants to get with me but i feel too guilty already, i dont think i could deal with it tbh.
so i have my triple life.
1. Being a slave to my dick of a abusive boyfriend Jimi
2. Planning my travel and wedding with my US army fiance
3. Going to these raves and parties with Tom
i sound like a whore don't i?
its weird seeing it written down. I dont think its overly bad though, im nmot purposely going out of my way to sleep with every tom, dick and harry.
me and Jimi won't be lasting much longer, i can't deal with him and his orders. Im still going to america and i havent done anything with tom sexually, just good party mates :) just no one else knows i go to these parties thats all :)
i think part of me is like, OK nellie, your getting married... go for it... do what you can while your free now, go party, get wasted, do your modelling, cause i dont know whether i can do that kinda stuff when i go overseas...
just need money now to go do all this with.
well thanks for reading my crap again
love to you all
and thanks for all the advice :)
xox
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Posted by krystal_child on 2008-10-03 05:06:49 | Rating: | Views: 42
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