8 billion people in the world and i have to love you . It makes absolutely no sense to me why the only person that can put a real smile on my face is also the only person that has ripped my heart out , chewed it up , and spit it back out in my face . Everything that has meant anything to me over the last 5 months has had something to do with you . The pain i'm put through is indescribable and it kills me to even think about it . There was a time where i thought i would look back on all the tears and laugh . But i never thought i would look back at all the laughs and good memories ... and cry . You are the only guy that has ever truly meant anything to me . Some people think it's just because your the first guy that i have done anything with , but they obviously don't know me , because your not . I feel like i've lived ten times longer then 14 years , and i know i act like it . Nobody expects me to be 14 , they always think i'm older . Maybe because i try so hard; because i do . All i want is respect , nd i have worked my ass off to get it . Yes , i might have wasted a little bit of my childhood and "grew up too fast" but i lived my life the way i wanted . I never obide by anyones rules , i break any put before me . All i want now tho is you . For you to respect me , love me , and be by my side . I have seperated myself from you to try and getovr you , but it hasn't worked and i don't think it ever will . I had hoped for the longest time that you would come after me , but should have known you wouldn't . I can't really expect much from you since i have actually gotten to know you . But you will always have a piece of my heart , and i know i shouldn't expect to get that back either ...
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