What do I mean to him?
Really becuase it makes sense for someone to say " I love you more than anything, and You mean everything to me" For them to be together. Well what does it mean when you aren't together. Is it still the same thing, but just... its waiting to become together? What? I'm so confused, someone who says you have no idea how much you mean to me, and you mean more to me than her. Which I know how you feel about her.. Its just weird.

So today is Sunday, the 30. 
     Tomorrow is Jake's birthday. I remember what I got him for his birthday when him and I were still together, I got him some colonge from Calvin Klein. It smelt amazing!!! October was a bad month, 10 days after his birthday he broke up with me. That was the worst day of my life October 11. But so far this school year has been semi-good. I go see Anthony at treasure sometimes in the morning. I love seeing him. He makes me feel a different kind of love than I've ever felt. I don't know how to project it. I dont know. haha. But anyways. Today is the last day of September, so I think that I'll say how september has been for me. Its been pretty stressful. With cheer practice, and homework. And just being home too. I just wan to have October be a better month. I remember I went trick or treating with Justin Bjorn, and Luke haha. Good times. October 28 would have been mine and Justins One year anniversary together. I wonder if he'll remember. Probably not. But oh well haha.

Well GOODBYE september,
HELLLOOOOOO OCTOBER.