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I have this feeling. Just a feeling, thats linked to a thought. I have to think about him. Have to stay positive, so I can slowly crash. I can't lose my mind, I have to let this pass. Its going to hurt to have to let him go. And I know that I dont want to. But I have to. I didn't want to like someone who I thought was amazing. I never wanted to break your heart, and yet I still haven't, and now I never will. You broke mine so that I didn't have to break yours. And I'm thankful for that. I will love you now, and forever, the same that I always have. I will never let you be in a different place in my heart, than what you are now. I thought that I deserved you, not her, but I was wrong. She got there before me, and now It really does make sense, of who you really want to be with. and thats not me, its her. I miss you so bad. I messed up, something along the way. I shouldn't have fallen in love with you, but I did. And that was wrong. I don't blame you, or anyone else for that mistake. Just myself. I dont know what to think right now. My feelings are kind of mixed together, and I feel a sense of happiness, and a sadness. I think it was when you told me, is when It realllllly struck, not, I've realized I have to move on. And I will... yet I know that I'm still gonna have these feelings for you. Just like I do him, him and him. Its just the way that it goes, well at least for me. I won't come to the school early in the morning to see you. I won't text you, for any reason. I won't call you, I won't... anything. Just love you. I guess now that.. that connection between you and I is starting to fade, I can break all the promises I once made to you. You say that you still love me. I know you might mean that now, but you won't tomorrow. I"m going to slip from your mind, and she;ll me the only thing, that you will love and care about. Nobody will ever know how much I will blame myself. I don't want to be sad, and tahts why I'm trying so hard, not to let myself get sad. Its just extremly hard. Its like when Jake broke my heart, but not really. I didn't understand then, I do this time. And maybe thats why it makes sense. I love you. I really do. I'm speechless now. I have to let you go....
Smoke comes from my mouth, becuase the fire in my heart, that was burning for you, is out.
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Posted by konstaninexxc on 2007-10-25 19:10:51 | Rating: | Views: 35
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