I can't put this into the correct words, to tell you how I feel. I can't say the correct words to explain why nothing I say makes sense. I wanna say I'm sorry. I can't find where to let my heart start. I can't stop confusing myself to just flatout tell you how I feel. Maybe I should start by telling you that, there truly isn't a moment that I don't think about you. When we talk, I never want it to stop. Everytime you say "i love you" I wonder if you mean it the way I do. Wonder if you'll say it different to another girl, or if its the same. I would hug you until the day I died if I could.I never want to let you go. Wonder if you ever think about me. I don't know how to make it more obvious that I'm falling for you. The sad thing is, is that I'm falling for someone I can't have. It really hurts to have to admit that to myself. I really want to tell you straight out, written on a wall that I honestly and truly am in love with you. I know that I shouldn't know what Love means at this age, but with you I do know what it means. I've never felt this way about any other person. But I dont know why I can't tell you. Is it because I'm afraid of how you'll react? Afraid of getting hurt, afraid of losing you for good? Which I hope will never happen. Your to much apart of my life, I'd die if you left it. Apart of me wants to come out and just tell you. So then I could stop worrying about it. The other wants you to tell me first, before I spill my heart out. I wish sometimes I wouldn't have to think about you. What more, please. I'm sick of crying becuase I want you to know so bad. So if you ever read this, I love you anthony. And you mean the world to me. I'd never be able to live without you. Never would. Ever. I love you. Three words that mean different from everyone else.