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3yrs ago on this thursday the 20th of december, my dad passed away. He had Melanoma. He was diagnosed, went through chemo, got better, got worse and died all within about a year. it totally sucks! Even worse, this past january my older sister only 24 at the time was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. it was caused by a genetic mutation. She's been going through chemo treatments for about 10months now. She just went back to work after taking a couple months off to give her body one thing to focus on, the chemo. she has already called in to work cause she wasn't feeling good. shorter story: that's exactly like my dad before he got worse. I just pray everyday that she has a better outcome. i do pretty good at handling things like this. I have crying spills every now and then, but my biggest fear is how this weighs down on the rest of my family. I don't want them all to fall apart. they have already fallen half way, but if my sister dies i know that things will get worse with the rest of the family and i don't know that i can handle that. i've always been the one or type to care more about my family than myself. i want to always be there for them and make things better, but i can't watch them hurt themselves with all the pain. i feel like i've put my whole future on hold for them and now i don't even remember what i want for myself and my future. i am scared what is in store for me if she does get worse.
If anyone has anything to cheer me up, feel free to share. Or if you want to vent about your own problems, go ahead.
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Posted by kokokay on 2007-12-19 13:21:26 | Rating: | Views: 69
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You sound like such a caring individual - looking out for your family in the face of such trauma.
You are going through what I believe is the worst, gut-wrenching pain ever. You need comforting and care as well.
We are just people - not super human.
Take are of yourself too.
Maybe your family are all worried about you, while you are worrying about them.
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Posted by 50gumbyss
on 2007-12-19 22:09:22
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