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iim confused of what to post tonight, im afraid that if i just lay down everything that is on my mind that i would be letting Scarlett down in a way and not helping her to get through this, but im afraid if i dont this feeling will only get worse, not that im not happy that im doing this for her, im just so alone and so worried now that EVERYTHING is out of my hand and i have no idea whats going on. regardless tired and cant sleep im dont even think i really fell asleep last night again. i just hate feeling like im not a part of her life, or when she isnt involved in mine. ok well im not going to go into the rest or into anymore detail but it was good to get something out atleast even though honestly it kind of slipped in on me i didnt mean to go into that.
I dont know what else to really post about though i mean work is work and its hot and awful otherwise i have sitting at home alone watching tv or starring at the computer screen. i have applied a few more places online today but nothing special reallly
i cant get her out of my mind, ever.
I feel like shit for not posting muc to or i know she is going to say your slacking on the blog and shit but honestly all i can think about is her, and all i dont want to do is post about her even though i want to...i know that doesnt make any sense to you, but it does to me.
i miss her
i dont want to be so alone :(
i dont even know what to say when i talk to her sunday, i mean is it going to be like a hour long conversation that ends in well talk to you next sunday? how do i talk to her without misunderstanding or her feeling pressured, or like im diggiing, OR ANYTHING...i dont know...i never feel like im doing the right thing....(that wasnt a attack on you Scarlett)...
I want to talk to her
i miss her smile
i miss her voice
i miss her love
i wont give up
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Posted by kmedcalf on 2008-01-17 22:41:20 | Rating: | Views: 77
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I unfortunately know the feeling. Wanting to be part of someones life. That you love... Hopefully she will come around. I know missing hurts...
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Posted by emotionalmassacre
on 2008-01-17 22:56:28
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