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so my daughter is learning to stand up by herself. and i have to say i feel pretty proud. i'm even more proud of the fact that she can be excited over something. ok, that sounds strange.
let me try again.
when a baby is born, they're basically this really tiny, strangely colored, almost dull little blob. they eat, sleep, cry, wet their diapers and not much else. the only thing that propells people through those first boring months of stress and crying and sleeplessness is the fact that its all so new. its so strange, like the reality hasn't quite sunk in yet and you're still waiting for that moment when you wake up and it was all some terrible, wonderful, amazing dream.
so by the time a baby starts to become interesting in and of itself you are more than ready for it to start doing something. i don't mean something to entertain you, just a sign that you are raising a child that will oneday be a toddler that will oneday be a teenager, that will oneday be an adult. those sort of indicators that this thing will not be dull and mindless forever.
and then it happens. when you least expect it. the baby smiles at you. you're just cooing or laughing or tickling like you always have, and the baby is just staring in a sort of startled fascination and then there it is. a smile. a genuine, not-just-gas-like-everyone-always-says-it-is smile. you made your baby smile. soon enough you'll get a laugh, an actual laugh that sounds so real its almost frightening.
and from then on its just a whole new realm of excitement. what emotion will the baby express today? how about the first time they look at you and frown because you aren't making them happy? their first temper tantrum? their first pouty face? or the first time you walk into a room and they light up at the sight of you?
and so now here i am, with a 9 month old daughter, getting bigger and stronger every day....and she gets excited over things. she stands there, all on her own and she immediately looks to me for approval. its that, hey mom, are you watching, did you see what i just did? face. and when she realizes that i saw, that i'm smiling for her, she gets her, i'm so proud of myself face on.
sometimes being a mom is just wondering if you could die from the sheer joy of it all.
i feel like the grinch, and my heart grows so many sizes more every day. |
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Posted by kmalbro on 2008-06-11 12:01:51 | Rating: | Views: 45
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I know exactly what you are talking about. It is amazing. Week to week new things develop. But nothing beats the smile I receive when I walk in a room. It's a feeling that can't be found anywhere else.
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Posted by HungryHeart
on 2008-06-13 23:29:17
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