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how do you acknowledge the end of a relationship? how do you wrap your mind around the concept of being without someone you lived and breathed for, took chances with, loved and devoted yourself to?
at this point i know the relationship is basically over. we love each other to be sure. we have respect and care and all the nice things you feel towards a brother or a friend i guess. actually let me correct that....i am still in love. i am still future oriented, together oriented, i am 100 percent in in in. but he wants out. and i know he does. he has said as much and trust me, we have discussed it ad nauseum.
the point is that while i still love him he has fallen out of love with me.
what am i to do with that?
the mature thing to do would be to let him go. he wants to leave let him leave. let him be free if thats what he wants so badly. but we had so much. all that time stretches out behind us, history and everything in it just so sweet. am i really capable of letting all that go for this moment of neglect?
because he has neglected me. i haven't felt passion from him in months. hell, i haven't felt the touch of his skin in longer than that. we are essentially just really nice roommated who have an occasional outing together.
i am torn, as always, between doing whats right and healthy and doing whats going to make us continually more and more unhappy.
actually i have passed unhappy several times already. i am lapping it even as we speak. leaving all my dreams and desires in a cloud of dust as i run as fast as i can towards nothing...anything to escape what lies behind me, dead and mangled in my wake.
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Posted by kmalbro on 2008-03-03 00:51:43 | Rating: | Views: 43
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It's hard to leave a relationship behind. We keep hoping to recapture that feeling we had before. But in most cases we can only find that feeling again with someone else. And with any luck the new feeling will be even better. I hope it works out that way for you.
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Posted by HungryHeart
on 2008-03-04 00:28:51
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