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Watching life go by

I feel like everything is moving so quickly, like I'm not really living my life, but just helplessly watching it go by. Yesterday I was waking to class, and I walked into my classroom not remembering the five minute walk I took to get there. It's like I’m on autopilot or something.

I'm feeling a tad overwhelmed right now. As much as I hate to admit it, My bestie is right....I have way too many boys involved in my life, and the minute i get back home it's gonna blow up in my face. I always thought that because I wasn't going out or sleeping with any of them, that it wasn't really a big deal. I was wrong; it just makes things oh so complicated. I never truly thought about it until yesterday when a guy asked me how long I had been single. Well, since I never actually officially when out with any of them, forever I guess. I just decided to tell him it was complicated...and you know what....it is.

I've been asked out by guys, I just preferred to not have a boyfriend. I enjoyed dating. Does that make me some kind of player? It's just that now, when I am ready for a more serious relationship, I am getting the type of people who don't.

--Kelsey