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ok so about congress

it sucked! I went to this dance while i was there and this guy from our district was like sitting there like depressed and all so i like came up to him and was like do you want to dance and well of course the next song was a slow dance so we did a song and the nexted slow song he like found me and all and i danced with him once more, he was to insucure to do the fast ones not that i really wanted to dance with him, but what ever, but he is such a chiken! grrr. but i dont "like" him he is sweet but i dont like gamers i dont like guys who all they do is play video games all day! i am sorry, i know i am not the best looking girl but i am not about to get interested in a dude who sits on his ass and plays video games all day!!! so agian what ever, now he thinks he is going to the formal with me, and i dont really want that to happen do not like him like that he like followed me around all week so i found this dude that said he would go to the dance as my fake date which i thought was fool proof right? well turns out we are morons cause we found a way for that to like not work out, the kid was like standing like 4 feet behind me and my "date" for like the first 2 songs. and one of my friends goes up to him and is like dude give them some space and he got hurt but i didnt know that happened until later but while that is happening we were trying to learn how to like dance cause we were both pretty bad but it was fun until we got up front and people started tuching me i dont like being tuched that is not cool so i like almost throw up right? i have to go out side thankfully none of my friends have like dates so they didnt mind coming out side with me. or anything. which i felt so bad they felt like they had to come out side with me. but they wouldnt leave me because i was all dressed up and they didnt want to leave out side by myself they rock and i love them! but they were like i dont want you to get raped and i was like ok? dont think that would happen here and i would kick there ass or well there was quit a few people around and i dont think any thing would happen but i am glad they all staid with me. I feel so bad that like i never told him i didnt "like" him because i guess he thinks that he and i could work but he is to like delicate i guess his feeling get hurt to easily for me and him to work out and we have like nothing in common but any who yeah his mom is in like praise band with mine and i dont want to cause any issues but i dont know what to do. i cannot date him and i would just end up hurting him. and i think i am just going to tell him i have a boyfriend or sumthing like that i am sure that i could fined one of my guy friends pretend to be my boyfriend it=f it went that far you know? i know like 2 of my guy friends like me and them i might date but not this guy it would be setting him up for disaster there has to be some chemistry and we have NONE! at all and i feel so bad i am sucha a bad person.... i hate myself. dont worry not going to kill myself or anything but what do yall think i should do??