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My dream

So this is what happened leading up to one of the worst dreams of my life. So i learned that my well was more than a friend person dude? if that makes since. any ways i learned that he is got over seas in september and that was so scary for me even tho we arent and never will be an "item" i still love him and would never ever want anything to happen to him. But back to that you know that song "just a dream"? that was the song i was listening to when i was going to sleep.

My family went over to his house, the day before he was leaving for Iraq. We talked for hours and he remembered what he had missed about me i had never forgotten what i love and miss about him, He ran his finger down my cheek and said he loved me, i told him i loved him and nothing could change that, he asked me if i would wait for him while he was gone so we could go out and all, and i told him of course i would (it wasnt like he there are any guys i am interested in around here and that would give me an accuse to turn them down) the excitement beamed off of him like rays of sun light. we left that afternoon and he kissed me so soft so warm...i never wanted it to end. That night he got in a fight with his brother and the next day while he was getting off the plane in iraq he got shot in the head with a m 16. so when this knowledge finally got to me i was so depressed i mean what girl wouldnt, the strangest thing was while i was grieving he was there t comfort me, he said he couldnt stay with me tho he had to leave soon but he wanted to make sure i knew that he wanted me to move on and not dwell in the past, what he had together was real and that i should move on with my life, and when i looked at him closely i noticed that he had a wound on his head i analized it and it was a bullet hole i started to cry so hard that made everything so real. I woke up that morning with tears in my eyes.

I miss him so much and i am going to miss him a lot more while he is gone worrying about him every day. I already miss him, you have no idea, he goes to training any time now an di just feel so bad that i....i-idk?