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these knuckles break before they bleed

So I went to work yesterday after school and had an awesome time as usual. I really do love my job. The people I work with are absolutely amazing human beings. They're here for a purpose :).

After work I went to American Eagle (AE) to fill out paper work. I still cant believe I work there. I'm already making friends. :)

I hate how my stepmother cant get unstressed. Her life is not that terrible now for her to be so uptight all the time. shes always yelling about something and is always jumping into other peoples conversations.
Example: Yesterday my dad was asking about Warped Tour-because I'm going with my mom but my mom hasnt called and said anything about it. And all I knew was that I was going this upcoming Sunday. So i was talking to my mom yesterday while holly and I were driving hom and I suggested to my mother that she call dad and let him know whatsup about warped tour. My mother always has something smart coming out of her mouth- and she replies, "Why? I'm not taking him?" I just kinda smirked and said I know. And Holly says," Well thats not the point, SO if you two could stop trashing my husband...." and just kinda scoffed and rolled my eyes like wtf ever.

So I hang up with mom and I knew and argument was about to happen. One, I'm not going to trash my own dad. You've been married to him for two years, and maybe been with him for a few more. But hes been my dad for SEVENTEEN YEARS. Why would that thought even remotely cross your mind. Granted Ive done it in the past when we werent speaking. But right now, my father and I have a pretty decent relationship. We barely see each other and that sucks, but we're not sick and tired of each other like i'm sick and tired of Holly.

I'd rather be at work most of the time than be at home. Shes not the most fun person to be with and I'm a ball of fun. You cant keep balls of fun bottled in. I need to get out. That why I enjoy going to my moms now- because I like getting away from the house I spend most of my time at. The thing about Holly that really gets to me though is she down talks everyone else. Like shes so perfect. Some of the things she says to me or implies about me- really hurt my feelings on occasion. I hate the way she says stuff about Ronnie. He treats youbad and yada yada yada. Ronnie never once treated me bad. Ronnie treated me very well thank you. We got in an argument that lasted for a month. Its funny, the minute I said I wanted to move out of my moms house and live with my dad- I knew Ronnie and I's relationship was gonna turn to shit...

and I didnt do anything to stop it. But I fought, I fought for a damn long time.

Holly said that shes worried that when Ronnie leaves in September--I'm gonna stay cooped up in the house all the time and not go out. I wont go out with guys. I promised him three months ago when he joined the NAVY thatd I'd wait. and I'm not breaking that promise. They dont understand how worth it he is to me right now in this exact moment of my life. If hes not the one, I'll find out. But we both have that feeling that we are the one for each other. and its not a feeling you can explain. You have to remain speechless. All you can do is feel it. But its the best feeling in the world to know that you've found the person you want to be with. The person that makes you happiest. The person that makes you the greatest person you can be. The person who teaches you wild and new things. Whether it about them or your surroundings. That prson you can share your innermost thoughts with. Hes that person.

Anyways...sappy moment. :) lol

I finished Unit 3 last night. :D
going to start on Unit 4.

xoxokirstenamanda