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I am starting a new journal today of course! I have not kept up with one since I had a diary-x and that sites server crashed. That was a long long tome ago. Now I have new people in my life and new things to not write about. Ha HA ! Anyway right now I am in the middle of planning my wedding, learning my recital music, and stage managing an opera. It sounds like alot but I thrive on a busy schedule and it really only sounds scary on paper or in this case I should say on screen.
I have always been the type of person to hold onto a friendship of any kind untill I couldnt anymore. What I am trying to say is that right now I am missing old friendships from people I haven't seen in a year or in some cases spoken to. In said relationships I was always the one who did all the work to try and stay close , but I fail everytime. So I came to the conclusion that all relationships that I will be in from now on I will try to hang back and let the other person make a little effort. I will call it a test of will.
Next thing is my loving fiance Joe....sometimes I feel as though the role has reversed in this situation. I love him unconditionally and he loves me unconditionally, but sometimes I get comfortable in a place of letting Joe call me all of the time and rub my back and do things for me that I forget that I want to do those things for him too. I just hope that he wont realize that I really am not as great as he thinks I am. He is the great person in this deal. He makes me want to be great like he is, and makes me feel like maybe one day that might be possible with a little luck.
I know that this whole entry might not even make sense, but I am ok with that....because it is 1:36 am.
All you need is love,
Kimichanga
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Posted by kimichanga on 2008-01-25 02:38:39 | Rating: | Views: 125
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Hi Kim, this is Sherry! You know I'm going to read your journal, so keep it up! Ang has one at: http://deliriousanticipation.blogspot.com/
And mine is: http://ilikeadventures.livejournal.com/
Ang has way more exciting stuff going on than I do. Michael used to have one but school killed it for him.
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Posted by Sherrypoopoo
on 2008-01-25 09:15:24
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