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Me and my m om got in a fight. I called her a stupid bitch, uh oh. I know bad.. BUt sometime sI just cant stand her weridness!! I kn ow I am at the teen age where your rebel, dont wanna listen to your parents, well I dont want to listen to her, because she is crazy!! She screams at everyone all day but denies it. She goes through these physco phases about someone or somothing every couple of months. She takes adderall smokes pot maybe it screwing with her head, She always tries to make people feel bad for her " it seems like" i dont really know whats going on in her head, I want family threapy. Are family has issues, including me. You know I really want another outlook, well an other persons views on are family because of course everyone is going to say for themselfs. my mom wont even do any kind of threaphy but she needs it and we all need it.

I feel like somehting is missing with her, or something is missing with our family. here i am saying all this stuff about my mom when I know we alll have problems. but at times it just seems if she was better we all would be better. it seems like a mother is the boss of it all, she is everyones mood feelings and behavior. and well the mother here cant handle the duty, and has a breakdown, so we are like oh no we just lost are leader now we have no one to dirct us. A motehr is a strong responsabilty, she directs you to your futre, sure I guess any person could direct you to your futre. but my dad cant do it etheir, he is too butt hurt about his wife.

okay I vent about my family, well other people in my family, makes me feel better, so time to vent about my brother. okay well he is going down a path of doom. he has a report due, so I did half of it, and he cant do the other half "cause he doesnt know how" well he didnt go to shcool today, probably cause his report is due. he said his alarm didnt go off, so i say I will take you to school right now and he goes i dont wanna go to school its almost overrr. yeah yeah he is going down the path of doom, will this effect him in the long run? lets see i know he has anger issues, learning issues or maybe he doesnt have learning issues maybe he is just to lazy to do it, it feel like something is there that need to be picked at. his anger problems well should be fixed, i can see him being very abusive his later years.

okay, well yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah here I am dising on everyone in my family. I know im not so perfect ethier. everyone acts like the perfect one in our family. okay I knwo I have alot of things wrong with me, socail issues probably just a little, anxiety depression, panic attaks, sucidal thoughts but i would never kill myself i just think about it, I thoughts of hurting myself. im geting over that though, havent hurt myself in a way long time but I still get the thoughts of it. in my own little head I think im better then everyone else, and I think everyone in my family thinks like that. i feeel like im wasting away just a little I need to get a head start on my life. I sleep mostly, bleh bleh alot things wrong with me, or maybe thats what I like to think hat i have problems that arent there. wow im really analyzing this out.

well by now I have confused myself and I shall go. i have the urge to get a head start on my life im gong to take a ged practice test ye yeye,
I will try to get a family thrapist.