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Proving ourselves

I am sitting here and thinking as I am reading ,why do we have to prove ourselves to others or to God.Meaning people (family and friends)what us to be someone we aren't.And god he is supose to take us as we are but you know we have to prove ourelf to him to.Cause we have all these commandments and rules we have to live by.Then our family and friends always look at us like we are nuts.Which I probally am.But the more you hear about the way we should be,sometimes I just want to hid in my closet and not be seen or heard.Everyone wants something differnt from everyone.There are some that fun and interesting to be around and then we have some of them people that can sit and do nothing but judge and hurt others.I hope I am not one of them.I am just me.I don't judge and I sure don't try to hurt someone else on purpose.But I do think some people thinks its a crime to have a little fun in their lifes to.
Do we need to stay serious all the time or can we have some fun with that.I am so tried of proving to people, someone that I am not.We aren't going to live forever so why do I need to keep proving myself to friends and family.
Life goes much easier when we have people in our lifes that except us for who we are.And if they want to be judgmental they can stay where all the other judgmental people stay.Cause them are the people that can't except the real world.If they always need someone else to talk about then that is just wrong in my book.
There are so many people out here in this world that are hurting from all kinds of differnt problems and we have people that put them down and judge them and look at us different because we have a different life then they do.
I don't hung out with to many people because in the end I always get hurt.They always say they are our friends until you turn your back.I do have a different life then alot of people.But what I have been through makes me have to have trust in someone to be able to be friends.And when your friends and family don't like what they see or what they hear they change their minds on being around you.I have lost all trust in friends.Some things are just better being secrets and hidin.Why am not sure why people try to hurt each other.Sometimes I think they try to see just how far they can push us.
But I do know trying to prove ourselves doesn't work either.Trying to be someone that we aren't isn't the way to go.I am a joking and having fun type of person that would do anything in this world for anyone without questions.Yeah I act like a kid alot but I never had that child hood.So I figure as long as I am still able to just some fun with life and with my family I am going to do that without having to prove myself to others.