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I am so confused. And I am so scared.
I feel so emotionally unstabled. Motocross boy has the bits of what is left of my injured heart still recovering. How can I expose myself to more pain? I just feel like he is worth a risk. But I am so afraid because he is giving me mixed signals?? We texted for a straight week, than he stoped texting since 2 days ago. Did I say something wrong? And I wonder if he is just waiting for me to text him, but I am afraid he will think I am annoying. Tomorrow I will see him at Melissa's. I'm excited but nevertheless very nervous. What if it an awkward situation? I hope he talks to me first, because I definitely would not have the nerve to talk to him first. I have never been to a house party around a fire. If this does not work out, I am not sure if I could handle the discouragement, I'm still only mending. But it seems I am setting myself up, so whatever happens it will be my own consequence. And let's say he does like me, for how long? He just seems so...not into me seriously. I mean of course it's too soon to tell, but sometimes I just want to ask him, honestly, would he try to like me, or is this just a now then forget about it tomorrow thing? Because I am not like that, I think I'm really starting to like him...
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Posted by ki_1six on 2007-10-19 01:42:43 | Rating: | Views: 88
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Just be careful, dont do anything rash or on the rebound, as your heart is still trying to heal and mend [am kind of going through the same on that score]
Sweetheart, doubt you said anything wrng, thats just your own self doubt etc creeping in - give it another day, then if you dont hear from him, send a simple text 'Hi, how are you?' that would hardly be pestering/annoying him.
Otherwise, just relax, dont race into anything - hugs
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Posted by kentlass
on 2007-10-19 04:05:42
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Dear ki_1six,
Sounds like your thinking too much.
Go about your day activities and focus on what your doing.
For goodness sake don't try reding someone else's mind, we have to much to deal with thinking our own thoughts, much less trying to figure out what someone else is thinking.
Heck, if your going to a party where he will be there, and you want to talk to him, then say hello. Don't wait for him to say something, he might just be thinking the same way you are: oh I'll wait for her to say hi first.
Shouldn't even be thinking thoughts of love, you haven't even begun a relationship yet.
Don't forget that you already know yourself and what happens to your heart when you think you need someone else to be complete.
You don't need anyone to be happy, and in reality no-one other than yourself can truely bring you happiness!
Take time to love yourself first, and to love what yoy are doing with your life. Love with another will come when you least expect it, but you'll never find it if you go out looking for it.
What you will find is, that as long as you let yourself be vunerable, then people will use you only to cast you aside when they are done.
So do your own thing first and make your own way in life,there's plenty of time for love, and love will move in it's own time.
Enjoy ki_1six for a while motocrossboy will be ther later.
Love,
jwcj
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Posted by jwcj
on 2007-10-19 06:15:49
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