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things about me....
When I tell you that I know your the one I'm suppose to marry, I'm lying. The man I was suppose to marry died when we were 15.
Sometimes I still think about you. I drove past your house the other day, noticed that you got your baja put together. In the depths of my soul I had wished you were there.
I find other girls attractive. In fact in the seventh grade I went with one.
My biggest fear is that you put me up on this pedalstool and I'm not the person you may think I am.
I love you more then you'll ever know, however you need to stop apologizing and start proving. Your a great person and you have so much potential but you give up on your self to quick.
I'm terrified of being alone and sometimes wonder if I would be satisfied with anybody.
I absolutely hate working and would love nothings more then to be a stay at home house wife.
Sex is amazing and being that I'm farely new at it- being that I now get to have it when I want to without being forced.
Being in a fucked up relationship took the life out of me. I often times find myself being tired and just exhusted of having to constantly do for others.
The two of you clam my werry soul.
When I go on myspace I always search for you and wonder if you ever do the same.
After all the bullshit that we've went through I can't believe that this is it. This is what are friendship came to?
I believe in both Heaven and Hell, however, God already knows where we're headed so I don't sweat it much.
I know that Heaven is where you are.
I still dream about you at night and get scared that I may say your name out loud.
You take care of me in the best ways possible. In everyway possible you take care of me.
Somedays I'm afraid that I'm not being the best mom that I can be.
I want to give you everything that my life lagged, everything that ever went wrong I never want you to have to experience.
Most days all I want to do is sleep. Sleep until the end of my days.
When I told you I loved you I meant it, all three words. I've never expericenced love the way you've shown it to me. Sorry I've given you such a hard time.
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Posted by khaftman on 2008-02-04 03:36:08 | Rating: | Views: 74
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wow deep!!
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Posted by Plakola
on 2008-02-04 17:24:56
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It sounds as if You have shaken to the very foundation of your life.. You are young enough to have the time to experience so much more and so much more time for everything to go right.. Sounds as if You already know how to love.. Hang in there. Great Writing and nice sharing.
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Posted by onetoejeff
on 2008-02-28 08:23:21
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