At last, some time to do another slice of rambling.
Feel much more, how can I term it? relaxed perhaps? within myself - for the moment, the black cloud has disappeared and the streams of daylight are surrounding me.
I do hope I haven't portrayed a 'bad' impression of myself? I do tend to worry what others 'think' always have done and always will - it is just coping with pain as well as depression - not all understand, yes, when I can, I walk as much as I can and enjoy every minute, even if it hurts like hell at the time - I'll still do it, I will not allow pain to rule my life and it has been known for me to be seen with tears rolling down my cheeks because of the agony I am in, but. I try never to complain.
As for the depression? it I just 'deal' with it, have no other option open to me and no, its not something therapy can help me with, nor pills - perhaps, I'll divulge more in the future, although I do believe most have an idea, due to my profile and some of the answers I have left in other peoples blogs on here ..soft smile.
Going completely off topic, but is my blog, so there - lil laugh
the oak tree? - poor thing, they finished shearing it and now it is completely shorn and bare - yes, it had needed doing for years and years and they have done a grand job of it - all nice and equally shaped, plus, I have more light coming into the upstairs of my home - the major downside? They have really made it 'bare', taken out so many boughs and so now its very 'open' to both elements and to ones eye - buuuuut, am a tad sad, as so many songbirds used that tree and now that most of its 'gone' and alot of leaves off, it looks bare and has nowhere for them to hide anymore..although, yes, I know by next Spring/Summertime, it'll flourish and become leafy and hopefully more 'full' do hope so.
Yesterday was a long day, I wont bore you silly with all the jobs I did - most were basic and mudane tasks, nowt exciting.
Oh, did have a photo sent to me, the lady, J, she wanted it and herself to be made and altered into an Hallowe'en type photo - a witch to be precise, she knows I have various software programs to alter photo's, add gifs etc, so was more than happy to do it for her - she loved it..I added filters, made her look nice and witchy, added black cat, pumpkin, animated shooting star etc etc etc..actually turned out okay [though heck, it can be time consuming removing objects that are detailed and collage/merging.
Weather today is absolutely freezing, I came home feeling like an icicle - lil laugh, but we have to expect a change in the temp/weather in general - although I dont feel we get the Seasons here like we used too - shame.
Did my lotto tickets whilst out - hope I am lucky tonight, am happy even if its just a fiver, anythings a bonus and you gotta be in it to win it - hehe.
So have now washed up after dinner, am sitting for awhile and playing about with hotmail IM and also my mobile phone, so have been writing this off and off using the windows notepad, is easier, then I can c&p it when I get into here - I know, me lazzzzzzy. Still not heard a thing from my friend 's', sad about that, but have texted and well, there was a clear note left in my open room at that chatsite - ahhh, that reminds me, must go visit pagan chatsite too this eve.
Riiiiiiight, now I have sent you all to sleep - yep, know I have - can hear the snoring from here - grin
I shall leave you with a wee chuckle and yep, tis fairly 'clean' and suitable of family viewing!
Love & light
Jack be nimble, Jack be quick,
Jack jump over the candlestick.
Stupid boy should've jumped higher.
Goodness gracious! Great balls of fire!
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