i am not feeling my best this evening, either physically or mentally. Thanks Trev, aye, as said last night, took her to bed shortly after speaking with you and was in bed fairly early again ready for today.
Talking of which, Trev and I were talking about the past [we have known each other some years] and how people act, get into cliques and the jealousy and sneakiness done in a back handed manner - why? ..shakes head - It was the main reasons he, I and others left the other place through the egotisical people that roamed the halls, am sure people think you 'blind' oh, far from it, i sense, feel and pick up an awful lot, more than they or most realise.
was talking to 'w' too in my PGroup yesterday, she agree's with the feelings i am sensing and have done since i first came here to Thoughts too sadly, it is a shame, i try and take people at face value, i watch them and study them, just doing that tells me alot about that persons persona - but, there always has to be a few rotten apples in the barrel that think you do not 'notice' the games and what is really going on.
one was caught out here and dealt with and, for now, i shall remain quiet, i suspect for the time being, others will be free to get away with it until others speak up. with their own suspicions.
i may start putting my blogs on private from now on, or, if the stress gets too much, i guess it will be a case of moving on - but, i will always remain true to myself and to others and, can not and will not change who i am.
okay, can feel the tears welling so time to cut off and occupy my mind.
mum is okay, j dog is a bit worse today, think she is going in sympathy with my own pain. otherwise, not much else happened personally.
we did have a massive fire in London, the mushroom cloud came over us, drifting on the wind and, as well as those three children yesterday and we still do not know the full facts, apart from it being a tragic shock to us all.
another friend, i found out today, he was robbed in his shop and hit, i gave him a hug, as he called me into his shop as i was on my way out to my appointment. sad world.
i sometimes wonder, i really do
i will take some more pks and i have had to resort to my morph patches again, do some mail and get their prayers up if i can, if i can not answer all of them straight away, please, be patient..soft smile, i do try and keep up and do my best to reply asap to all mails if needed.
- i shall be in and out probably/maybe tonight, its mid eve already and with pain and my depression, mum etc etc and the fact i shall have my calls to wait for, to get the shopping orders in for others, its going to be a restless next few hours.
i may put a post up that i did and saved on word the other day, i am truly thankful for that, it saves time typing it all out at out and i can pick it up and drop it as i please [l am currently typing this, although, i have had to stop once to tend to mum, thats why it is short]
love & light always
A xo
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