well i did it. i fell for my best friend. he was so special to me. i could come to him for anything. i told him everything. i mean everything. he sometimes had to dry my tears when others hurt me. but never once was he the cause of them. i realize now i told him too much. leaned on him too much. depended on him too much. see the whole time that i was pouring my heart out telling him how much i "loved" someone else. he was busy loving me. and when he told me his feelings i told him i didn't want to "ruin our friendship". isn't that just the lamest thing? and apparently that broke his heart. well here we are 3 months later and he has a girlfriend. and i am single. i also happen to have realized how stupid i was and realized that i also happen to love him. and i try to make it better, but he's not the same person he was. he's angry and bitter that i hurt him. he reminds me constantly that i broke his heart. and he continuously breaks mine. he's made me cry. so now i have to realize that i not only lost a love that i wanted so bad. but i lost my best friend. and that hurts even worse.
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