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So, so, so.
I don't even know anymore.
I go from unsure, a blurred line. I've become paled, my boundaries, my goals, my assertations have blurred and become unsure as I am. That makes me mad.
Lots of things make me mad.
But I can only be me, still, always.
Have I become less of a person? Have I allowed people to define me, again, even though I promised myself I wouldn't? Have I quieted my beliefs? Have I let myself fade away, constantly fade away till I'm just blending in with the background, just a fixture on the wall, nothing more than a decoration. Have I allowed myself to bottle it all inside, quieter and quieter, refusing to speak, refusing to listen, refusing to let anyone else in. I'm afraid I'm becoming a person I don't want to be, a non-person.
Am I losing my friends? We still hang out, but it feels like we're just skimming the sufrace these days. Is that my fault, is it our fault?
I can't do this anymore.
I know this is probably PMS, but does that honestly make it any better?
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Posted by kelsey1206 on 2008-01-20 21:31:39 | Rating: | Views: 39
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sounds like your getting ready to start a new faze in your life,it can be scary,but your growing as a person that takes strength,and yeah mabey a little pmsy,i always am
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Posted by necronomincon
on 2008-01-21 00:57:24
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