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I have often wondered what we would do without friends. For the first time in my life I finally realized alot. When we all were 16 or teenagers and didn't care or didn't know, we took each others boyfriends or made out with are best friends man and didn't think a single thing about it. But, now things have changed, we are older and wiser and realize so much. I knew someone and thought he was a friend who introduced me to his wife. I thought good someone new and someone who has kids and knows what it is like and my kids will play with her kids. All of us could go out as couples boy was I so wrong.Things went well for awhile until HE came along. It was just a fling and a bunch of lies like he said she didn't like me and never was my friend, just to get me into bed or for whatever stupid reason and I was stupid enough to do it I guess insecure I hate to admit. How stupid and immoral could I have been, I knew better and really thought that friend was not my friend. And, I got caught up in a web a lies and really got close to HER. Not close as intimate but as a best friend. I hated all of it all the lies and all the bullshit and I really cared for her and ended up hating him. I just know it was total bull shit and I tried to make right of what I did wrong and SHE forgave me but could never forget and I lost my best friend. WHY????????? Did I do that.??? She was some one who was so much like me and could talk to. It didn't matter what it was she was there and I was there for her. But, in the end. SHE is with her husband and I lost my best friend. All I could ask for is forgiveness and hope she will take it. I miss her and now her husband hates me WOW now who would of thought of that. USED and TOTALLY BULLSHIT!!!! I don't have anger for him because he hurt me or used me. I have anger because I lost my best friend. Now he tells her not to talk to me or it is over between them. I wouldn't take her love or her love of her family from her because that is all she has ever known. I just wish things could of been different but no I did it and lost. So if you read this and I know it is long. Don't ever take that friendship for granted because men may come and go but best friend will always be there. No matter what if she called me today I would be there for her and will always care and love her. But, l know life goes on and we learn from mistakes. So, someone please learn from mine and think of the ones you love and don't ever put yourself that low again for it will never be worth it.
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when you get older and you have had people come and go thru your life ,then you have "friends" that have been in your life for the long haul. i have a wonderful friend in my life that i am so greatful for.we have known each other for about 16 years or so. she like my sister. SUZI Q . i know i can count on her for anything. even though shes married and has kids, we still can relate to each other. shes my dearest friend and i apprieciate that shes in my life.
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Posted by breakwater07
on 2007-09-06 23:21:08
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when you get older and you have had people come and go thru your life ,then you have "friends" that have been in your life for the long haul. i have a wonderful friend in my life that i am so greatful for.we have known each other for about 16 years or so. she like my sister. SUZI Q . i know i can count on her for anything. even though shes married and has kids, we still can relate to each other. shes my dearest friend and i apprieciate that shes in my life.
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Posted by breakwater07
on 2007-09-06 23:21:13
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