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seems like everytime i think i have it all figured out something happens to make me question what i decided. i ended it. i sent him a message telling him it just wasn't going to work out. that i am looking for someone to settle down with and i feel like we are in two different places and that i don't think we want the same thing. but i dont know if we want the same thing or not. because i dont know what he wants. he can read me like an open book. i cant fool him. he sees right through me every time. but him? i never know what's going on in his head. his expression is always the same. he always comes off cold and indifferent when we talk about emotional things. and i cant do that. i cant be with someone if i dont feel like we can talk about things. i hate not knwoing whats going on in his head. i mean its not like talking to any other guy. i know you can never completely know whats in someone head but you start to know ppl after awhile. like *him* for instance. i could tell you exactly how *he* would react to anything i said or did. i could tell you what *his* facial expressions meant and certain tones. i could tell from across the room if *he* was tired, pissed or antsy to get away from someone. if something was wrong or if he was content with the world. this guy now can tell all those things about me but i cant about him. i cant really tell you what he looks like when he is mad or sad or happy bc they all look the same. i cant predict his reaction or take a good guess at something. i dont know him. but he sure knows me. and i hate it. i want to know who i am with. inside and out as well as one person can know another person. but i dont feel like i will ever have that with him. what the hell does this kid want???? tried asking him but it isnt always that easy. oh well. its over now. so i guess there is nothing to worry about any more.