suckedddddd, really boring, alex had to work && i did like nothing. Then when we were together we didn't even get along so that really sucked and idk. i'm just over it. the good thing is i haven't felt like i've wanted to break up with him. usually when we get into a fight, i'm just like whatever i'm over it. and yeah sometimes i'd like to be on my own, be able to flirt with boys, and hang out with my friends more. but i lovee him more than any of that. [ i miss my kiki. i hope she is okay. she is my baby kitty[random, but were watching homewordbound and the kitty on there reminded me of her] idk its hard sometimes being with him. i feel like i can never be as good as him. i mean i know i don't really talk that much about anything that is 'smart'  and he is, reallly super duper smart. i tell him that all the time. he never really tells me, maybe every once and a while, but not like when i tell him. i wish i got a little more credit for what i do. we were just fighting tonight. i hated it. i love him. idk. i'm just kinda in a pissed off mood. plus i'm so fucking thirsty. idk bored. i have to fart. hahahaha. i wanna watch a chick flick. not this. or something intereting. hmm. i bet he is getting mad becaue i'm sitting here and typing, but i really like this. it helps me vent about my feelings. i wish he could understand that. well i'm done.

-11.32 pm sat 21st 07