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Lately I've been thinking about suicide. It's starting to scare me. I have so many reasons why I would commit suicide, I'm not even going to go into them. I'm just not happy.

I used to think people would be crazy to commit suicide, why throw life away? Who would be so stupid? But now, that I'm thinking about it, and I understand why people do it, it starts to scare me, that I used to think it was stupid but now I don't. I don't think I would ever do it, thats to scary for me. I don't have a lot of guts. But it worries me, that I'm thinking about this.

I keep saying to myself that these thoughts would go away. But each day they get worse and I don't know what to do.

I told my friend, and said she was going to tell someone. Now I know thats the right thing to do, but I really don't want her to. When I was telling her this, I just needed someone to listen to me, not to fix me.

I don't know what to do.

Can someone help me?

Updated 9/25/07

Posted by kcfsmile on 2007-09-16 10:48:41 | Rating:

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		they i really dont thinkm theres anithing rough with u and trust me i have gone through the saim im actually in that stayge right now. and to tell u the trued i have no ideah why. you see i dont have a bad live but its allso not great. i gess i cant complayh but i cant go true my kitchen and see all dose nives with out wondering wath if. i dont think i have the guts to do it either. i have faced so many wors things and manege to surbief. with out going throue to much personal thin gs ill just tell u the fallowing i kn what ur going true and the best help there is is to talk to someone that dosent kn u that way they cant judge u if u ever need someone like that ill be glap to help
Posted by whatonlyisee on 2007-09-16 12:01:03


		they i really dont thinkm theres anithing rough with u and trust me i have gone through the saim im actually in that stayge right now. and to tell u the trued i have no ideah why. you see i dont have a bad live but its allso not great. i gess i cant complayh but i cant go true my kitchen and see all dose nives with out wondering wath if. i dont think i have the guts to do it either. i have faced so many wors things and manege to surbief. with out going throue to much personal thin gs ill just tell u the fallowing i kn what ur going true and the best help there is is to talk to someone that dosent kn u that way they cant judge u if u ever need someone like that ill be glap to help
Posted by whatonlyisee on 2007-09-16 12:01:04


		I lost my friend last year.He tried to kill himself by turning on the gas then striking a match.He didn't succeed then,but had 70% burns on his body.It left him in AGONY,and eventually he did die as a result of his injuries. He's ok now tho.He's out of it.But not us.His family and friends.The pain and even guilt we suffer each and every day,is beyond any pain he had.Death of a loved one in this way is indescibable to anyone who hasn't suffered at it's hands.Your family would blame themselves.Your friends would blame themselves.Anyone associated with you would too.Perhaps if I'd have done this or listened more or if I had picked up the phone ect.These are all question that your family will be tortured with for the rest of their lives. PLEASE don't do it.As someone who has lost a person in this way,I am qualified to say to you... Is this REALLY want you want?I personally don't think so. Good luck to you.
Posted by Wavey on 2007-09-16 12:10:40


		Sweetheart, it seems to me that you are thinking about death because you lost your friends so suddenly. You know how it feels to lose someone in such aweful ways. I would like you to go to your doctor and talk about these feelings as it's a very common sign of depression. In the mean time, write more. Get things off your chest, cry, shout, scream. Do anything you need to that will help you vent your feelings that doesn't involve illegal or harmful activities? Then share your feelings with someone. I don't know if there are call centres over there that help with these feelings and give you someone to talk to. They help by having impartial and sympathetic people to help you vent. You are asking for help so you don't want to harm yourself but you are scared of your own feelings. It's a massive step forward. Keep making the steps. Look after yourself and talk to me if you want.
Posted by pixiedust3113 on 2007-09-16 12:59:59


		Give me some of the reasons you want to die. I think about killing myself all the time. life sucks but i hate pain, so I could never actually do it. Now if a suicide pill come out I am there, because therew is really no reason to live we just do it. Most people try to live forever because they are afraid of death but I welcome it. The moral of all of this is NOT kill yourself, I don't want angry letters saying because I have a different veiw on life and death i just wanted to let you know that your not freak or alone in you feelings..but why do you want to die?
Posted by alicia7tommy on 2007-09-17 03:10:02


		email me we will talk. or IM me
Posted by alicia7tommy on 2007-09-17 03:10:58


		i have also felt that way before. a lot of times,very recently also. Read difficult souls blog. suicide will kill you.keep smiling.
Posted by bubblydi on 2007-09-17 07:53:30


		I use to be the same way. i constantly thought that how can anyone really hurt themselves? it waas what i thought about cutting. I was completely against it. But eventually i started to and other stupid things. And it might seems like to me you need some attention. You jsut wanted someone to listen and be there. Someone who would just shut up and listen. not voice an opinion. Obviously suicide isnt the answer to anything. i am kind of hypocritical for saying this. But your not lost yet. or depressed. but if u keep going down the path your walking you willl be.and trust me when i say go talk to someone. Now. Really you don't want to know where that path is leading. Because i have never stopped walking it and it keeps growing darker. If you bother even listening to this comment because i know i don't really listent to anyone. Get some help. It will only get worse and you really don't want to see what can happen or who you will turn into.
Posted by bl4ckh3els on 2007-09-17 15:10:05


		hey. i dont think i can help you. not really. but i do understand. so your welcome to message or email me any time you like. Summer Skye
Posted by SummerSkye on 2007-09-20 03:37:54


		Please don't. your family would miss you so bad. hang in there, the sun is coming out soon honest :]
Posted by poppyxstars on 2007-09-30 02:08:37


		Feel better kerry :D
Posted by kcfsmile on 2007-10-10 17:30:10


		I can try to help i have gone through some very rough patches in the last 4 years all my friends have either died or moved away i lived throgh hurricane katrina which was horrifying, my aunt was murdered by her ex-husband who then shot himself while she was holding my 2-month old niece. i have thought about suicide but it pointless to im not a religious person but in every religion except for the damn suicide bomber religion suicide leads to whatever version of hell that religion describes if u need to talk just email me at jabbozeman@yahoo.com
Posted by jab on 2007-10-28 18:32:54

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