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If anyone has any in put I'd really love to hear it..
I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be tonight. The man of my dreams came back to me and tonight I was taking care of his drunken night. He and I were in bed and suddenly at 2:30am the female who tried once before rang the doorbell non stop. All of my instincts wanted to bust through the front door and teach her to respect my space and maybe a little respect. Long story short she didn't leave until around 3 after he went out side and I used every ounce of strength to stay put inside bubbling over. She was wasted he was drunk and I'm the sober one being really effected emotionally. I don't frankly know what I'm supposed to do! Is she just crazy stalker girl or is there something more happening here? I don't know what to do. I'm in love with this man and yet this is becoming a huge weight on me. I feel as if someone has invaded my privacy and searched through my belongings. I don't feel safe there anymore. Like at any moment she can come back and I have no control over what events take place. The things he said to me I won't hold to him because he'd been drinking. So all the reassuring will need to be said again. I don't even know what to think.
It just hurts.
Deep down inside my chest to the bottom of my stomache. I don't know why it hurts either. I feel there is so much dishonesty but from whom?
It makes me cry and then my head starts pounding and I can't breathe. I feel like I'm just spinning and nothing seems right.
Please if there is anything you can say I'm wide open.
How do you choose the perfect man over things you don't deserve. This was not fair. My mind is blank and I'm left thoughtless. Almost completely numb. Almost like my heart stopped beating.
Am I over reacting?
I'm lost. I surrender.
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Posted by kcchaseme17 on 2008-04-26 06:49:20 | Rating: | Views: 38
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