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Too many confusing thoughts running through my head and so many possibilities on what I am to do with them. I have four ways to go and there is no such thing as the right answer to it all. Anything I choose or do someone will be let down in someway. I recently have let one man down two hard times. How can someone posess such feelings for a person and not know what to do with their feelings? I know I should still need time to move on and fully "recover" from the last one but I want so badly not to but also know it's not fair for him to be drug throug it all with me and watch me and my pain. I feel as though I'm over it but inside I still think of him sometimes good but mostly bad. There are so many unresolved issues I have with him for his lack of answers. He ran away leaving me guessing. I feel like my body and emotions are being torn to two different men. Does that even make sense? I have feelings for someone but at the same time nothing extremely serious is happening there. I have a feeling that my guilt, say I fall into both temptaions, would weigh much too heavy on my heart. Things like that are questionable for me. I'm stuck wondering which way I go. The way my body goes for one, I have no emotions tied to and he knows it, it's the way we both like it to be. The other there is nothing physical happening but I have emotions for. Does that make it okay? This whole situation is just astounding. I have no idea what I am expected to do. I know what I want to do, but don't know if I could let myself. Only time will tell at this point. I guess we'll see where the cards fall.
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Posted by kcchaseme17 on 2008-03-17 03:16:40 | Rating: | Views: 52
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