I know I just wrote a post like, 15 minutes ago, but I'm not quite sure if I got my point across the way I'd hoped. So, to join this website I had to sort of, fib my age a little. Ok, a lot. I;m only 13, and I'm putting my faith in you not to narc on me cause i lied about my age. But anyways, I'm in the 8th grade and while all (and im not exaggurating when i say all) have had at least 3 boyfriends, and Ive neve had one, me and my one friend even went o the trouble of making up boyfriends, because at this point, she'd never had a boyfriend either, but it got too weird, and we "broke up" the next day. And Im also putting my faith in you not to think Im a freak, cause I guarentee you that Im not and I have a lot of friends. But there' this one guys Ive known for four years now, and we've always been pretty good friends, but this year, since were in the sa,e class, we've gotten a lot closer and we've been chilling outside of school, since he lives near me, and I think I might have like... a crush on him. Is there even a way to know if you have a crush on someone? I wouldnt even call it a crush... id call it like...a little baby crushlet. I just think he's a really good friend, and he;s easy to talk too, but i don't know if id say he's like, my type, if i even have a type. UGH. guys suck. they make me so confuzzed and i don;t know what to do around him, or any other guy for that matter. Is it that I'm not pretty, am I fat, am I weird, like, what is wronfg with me that no guy, will date me?? Is there something there seeing that Im not? Sometimes I feel like, unwanted or something. I dont even know. Its not that I need a guy or anything, its just, it would be nice, to have someone I had like, a special relationship with. You know. God. This sucks.