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i don't want to go.

i hate my family sometime.
why do people feel the need to drag their relaties through the dirt?
just stop.
it isn't helping.
what's the point?
my sister is a colossial idiot.
i don't want to go tomorrow.
i don't want to be a part of that family.
i dont want to answer questions
i dont want to cry in front of them
i don't want to go to the cemetery.
i don't want to be a part of that family.
that hurtful, vindictive family.
i don't want to be in the same room as both of my parents.
i don't want to be asked how i am, what i've been up to.
i don't want anyone to ask me when the last time i had been to see her was.
she was old, and i barely knew her.
they can try to make me feel bad, try to make me guilty.
i am sad, i should have spent more time with her,
but obviously i don't do a lot of things that i'm supposed to do.
and now i'm sick of all of this family.
i don't care.
this isn't a real family,
they don't feel like family, they feel like strangers.
they don't feel like real people...
they feel like weird robots, programmed to to be weird and judgmental.
whatever.
tomorrow is really going to suck.
really.