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Last night I made the formal decision to be myself. I had an epiphany that for the entire time O've known Matt, I've been copying other people. Celebrities. I dye my hair and dress and do my make up like them. I must have looked tragic. Well I'm over that now. Katie has to come back. She's been locked in a cupboard since late November/early December.
I will obviously miss Matt. I'll miss the random little texts at 2 in the morning. I'll miss the cute little comments. I'll miss the way he just spoke.
But that was a lie. It wasn't Matt. And I'll be damned if I'm going to play some game of being a different person as well. I'm gonna go out there and be myself. I'll wear the baggiest hoodies. I'll listen to the randomest music. I'll do whatever I bloody well please. Because I'm no longer a bird in a cage, being forced to send pictures. I can safely put it all behind me. I didn't have sex with him. I didn't do anything. And now I can walk away with my head held high. He can go and play some other girl.
My dad always told me you can't buy experience.
I've been fooled. I've been infected with his inoculation.
I'm now immune. Priceless.
Kate
xxxxx
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Posted by katesblog on 2009-07-08 04:12:18 | Rating: | Views: 38
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