God....I feel so stupid right now. I have been talking to my ex since yesterday and he says we are just friends. I get that but talking to him made all those feelings come back and now I am just gonna screw myself over again. I think that by him talking to me it means something when deep down it doesnt necessarily mean anything. I fucking hate this. I missed talking to him so much that the first chance I got to I took it without thinking. I didn't think things through. I still love him so much....I mean it's only been two months since we broke up but he's over it so how come I'm not? He says we are friends like before we started dating. I slept with him. He can't just be my friend like before. I mean did we have sex before we dated? Hell no. So what the fuck is he thinking. He says that he misses me and still cares but then why is he messing with my head. He knows me better than ANYBODY and I know for a fact that he knows exactly what is going through my mind. I don't know anymore. I told him that he needs to earn my trust back to be my friend but I dont think I can handle just being his friend. Especially if he gets another girlfriend. I don't know. I guess I just gotta wait and see. Everything happens for a reason right? Geeze I hate waiting. Peace