I find myself questioning things in my future. Im content and pleased with my life as of today.Im in a happy and healthy relationship and i have alot going for myself.Im in school and planning for the future. BUT. Is it all what i want???.The relationship?..Hell yea!. Im talking about school and more school,and the jobs most of us are forced to take because "they" say its the best thing for you. Why is it that hundreds and thousands of students everywhere absolutely hate school,but will never think of dropping out? I fit perfectly into that category. The big WHY? Is it because we're smart enough to realize the consequences even when it seems impossible to keep going. Or are we fed material eye candy like big houses, and fancy cars to keep us motivated. I must be honest. That's exactly whyi've made it this far. Who doesn't want to live comfortably, if not glamorously? I think im struggling most with guilt in this topic. How can i not have enough motivation in me to simply want this for myself? I think i have that motivation or else i would have quit along time ago. We get discouraged and possess the need to be re-encouraged(if thats a word). I guess until i can't go anymore i'll keep on. Striving for MY excellence!

 Kasidilla,