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AHHH!!!! why wont anyone listen?!?!? i feel like right when im about to open up to someone they stab me right in the back! i just want to say everything! let it all out. but im scared! what will ppl think? will they turn away from me? leave me here and think im a freak? i want to say everything. like how i feel like the world is crashing on me. i want to explain things. let them feel exactly how im feeling. my best frind thinks im always depressed and that im really shy. but she doesnt know that inside im eather leaping for joy or crying. i keep it inside me. im terrified to open up. i try to speak but my throut closes and the words dont seem right anymore. my other friend everyones hates. they they dont say so to her face but they talk about her. but i love her. ya shes made some bad decisions but everyone does. so idk wat to do. do i stay by her and fight with her or go with the flow and just pretend im her friend and talk bad about her? then the girl that i thought wa my friend. shes trying to make me jelouse now. she calles me randomly and says ya me and my new best friend..*cough cough* are having so much fun together! haha if you think thats going to work you got something wrong with you. you betrayed me and now i cant help you out of the shit you caused. i just cant. my dad. everytime he lookes at me it always seems like hes ashamed of me. of how i turned out. im going to mess up!!!!! why cant anyoine get that through there brains?!?!?! im not perfect!!! im sorry if i cant do anything right!!!! oh and going back to my best friend i was a bitch to her and totally lost all her trust. and if you dont know already i hte ppl mad at me and i dont think of what im saying befor i say it. and i did that. AHHHH!!!! why did i have to open my big mouth and speak?!?!? i could have just ignored it. ill tell you what happened. so these guys were talking and flirting with me and my friend and i wanted some guy to tell e something and he goes only if i can see your boobs and i was stunned. (if you dont now im shy around guys and i dont know how to act around them so i said this bc i didnt have experience and i wanted to get the pressure off of me) so i go she will. and pointed next to me were my frind was sitting. she goes god!!! that was a bitchy thing to do!! and i was llike shit! that was im soooo sorry! and then she got mad and texted me saying now you lost my trust and every guy here thinks im a slut!!! that hurt. bc i knew i caused it. what do i say? i dont want to loose her. NO!!! i do not want that to happen! thats my biggest fear. i have to think of something. help me? comment me please!!!! i need advise!!!
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Posted by kammy on 2007-11-25 19:44:52 | Rating: | Views: 140
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hi kammy!
that's a lot o'stuff!
maybe you could start breaking it down in categories or something...'cause i sure couldn't handle all that at once...
:o)
you might want to start thinking about it and start to set out a series of steps... i dunno...
good luck...
:o)
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Posted by badlydrawnstickman
on 2007-11-25 19:53:40
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