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feelings overwelm me and they bottle up inside me. so ill try to explain them. my friends call me an emo. i hate that! i have blond hair but they say that me just trying not to be one. i have the bangs that fall infront of my face i wear graphic t`s and converse but thats just what my cliq wears. yes i do get deppresed. i dont know why. it comes out of no were. i think of life and death, friends and family. secrets i keep, friends that i told......everything. and it makes me depressed. io cant explain this. i wish someone could just feel exactly how i feel. feel my pain for a second. even my family thinks im an emo. they dont trust me. they are ashamed of me. they cought me cutting. i didnt do it to be an emo.....i did it bc i wanted atintion from ppl. i didnt tell everyone just one person so its not like i advertised and wanted atintion from everyone. but it was so wrong to do. i lost all privliges, all trust. my rents just loko at me like am i failer. that hurts....bad. one of my friends....my best friend....i cant really tell anything to. she takes it in and changes her whole perspective of me around. i get mad sometimes when im around her. im no mad at her im just mad at the situation. but she gets pissed at me when i get mad...when im not really mad. shes over sinsitive. very. and she says shes my best friend but then goes and runs off with another friend. im ok with that but she excludes me and it bothers me. alot but i cant say anything. then theres my other best friend.... she listens and helps me. she is probably the best person anyone could ever ask for. we both kind of have the sae emotions. we feel the same things and fce them the same way. we go to each other. then theres the person that i thought was my best friend. she betrayed me soo many times. i cant forget it! it makes me so mad! i trusted her! but she abused it! she told everyone what i told her. and she expects me to help her out of any situation. i try not to help but its hard when you were friends with her for a very long time and you cant just leave and walk away. help me please with that one. life is so hard! it was so easy when we were little. so easy. now there is betraywl, hate, back stabing, drugs, pain, alcohol, sex, fear, everything sucks riht know. im confused as to how im supposed to live with my mistakes and make the best of them. im frustreted of my friends and how they treat me, im hurting from all the shit i have to carry, im scared of growing up, and im depressed. help me, talk to me, give me advise please. maybe for once some one cane feel what i feel befor the bottle inside me bursts. "broken friendships are like glass, you onl cut yourself trying to put them back togerther"
"a true friend sees the pain in your eyes when everyone else believes the smile on your face"
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Posted by kammy on 2007-11-23 11:54:18 | Rating: | Views: 260
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maybe you should ask the friend that u trust what to do. idk but since u share the same emotions and all they could probly help u
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Posted by iloveyou33
on 2008-01-18 00:11:43
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