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bethe judge...

In all honesty, i really dont know who am i..it still puzzles me what i really wanna do with my life..I knew what i wanted then.I wanted to be a teacher..to teach the unfortunate kids...but as i grew up, i began to see the real world. The present world. Being a teacher here in this country is tough. You have to be content on the basic salary they could offer you based on your credentials..Yes, practicality introduced itself to me. I knew i cant do it..because im not from a rich family to not worry about the daily expenses.Im from a middle-class family but i cant afford,i can no longer afford to run to my mum's arm every after something frustrates me.It pains me that up until now,i still cant give them comfortable living.They arent getting any younger..but they still strive to make a living to be able to feed us...Anyway...im wasted enough of a kid, but im striving with all my might to supass that...I wish to make my parents happy and comfortable...as a token of gratitude for all the years they have nurtured me.They have taught me nothing but good things,but i have grown up to be the opposite.

Who am i?

As wasted as iam as a person , there are good things i have done..I could be a good person too..but not so often..I like simple things but i give people the impression that im a classy girl..
I may look tough but i still cry over mushy movies, like that of City Angles,which i re-watched last night. Yeah and earlier in the morning when i woke up..mum noticed my eyes and asked my why it was swollen..i looked like i had an eye transplant overnight to look like a chinky eyed girl the morning after. My eyes were pretty swollen just because of crying..over a mushy film! how funny is that?i havent heard anyone yet,even the most sensitive of the sensitives who ever shed so much tears just for a film! ahahahaha..anyway....everyday, i still strive to find out who i really am and why iam in this world..if i have any purpose...