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Pregnancy
So D and I have decided it is time to add to our family. We have been working on reproducing. In the weeks prior to my expected period date I have taken several pregnancy tests! My husband is adorable in his excitment. The fact that the tests will not prove a positive result so early......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-02 11:12:36 | Rating:

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still waiting...
So no period yet, but in all honesty it has just turnned to the due date of my period, so it really is up to the next few days to tell. I think I am getting it though, sadly enough.. I guess we will just have to keep on trying. AT least trying is fun! In other news, New Years was a......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-05 11:05:37 | Rating:

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job opportunities and other misc news
So I pry should have written a few days ago to let everyone know I am NOT preggo :(. NOt that you are all hanging by a thread waiting to find out or anything. But I like to think in my mind that someone in cyber space might have read my blog and been a little curious:). So I guess we will......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-08 10:59:22 | Rating:

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01.09.09
Today is D's b-day. Typically B-days are filled with booze and parties in his world. So today will be a tough day for him. He is actually away on a buisness trip so I won't see him today. His trip happens to be to his home town. Therefore his friends and family are there to celebrate with him.......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-09 10:13:08 | Rating:

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so tired
D is so predictable- he called to let me know he WILL be partying tonight. I feel like crying and screaming all at the same time. I am sooooo fucking tired of this. Don't I deserve to be happy? How much of this do I take? I am so tired of talking about drinking.. I am so tired of living with an......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-09 13:58:16 | Rating:

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one last thing- ( i think anyway)
I just want to say one more thing- I must be crazy- look back like three blogs ago- trying to start a family- ppfffttt what a laugh- what was I thinking?? I thought he'd really decided to start being a husband and family man- I repeat I MUST BE CRAZY!...Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-09 14:01:06 | Rating:

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feeling conflicted
I am not sure I love my husband anymore. ... I think I care for him but I am not really in love, I think I spend more time saying the words trying to convince myself I really feel this way than actually feeling it. I just don't know anymore... D was away on buisness all of last week. He......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-12 11:13:24 | Rating:

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1.13.08 "for better or worse"
Wow - today is a day of feeling conflicted. AGAIN! I just wish D would hurry up and freaking get an effective level of medication in his system. I don't really know how much longer I can take his snide and hateful remarks- It has become about half and half now- sometimes like the old D,......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-13 14:30:45 | Rating:

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You wanted more
I hear this song this morning- I felt it really fits my emotional state- I mus have heard this song a thousand times- but never really heard it if you know what I mean. Anyway just wanted to share- You wanted more- TONIC Love is tragic Love is bold You will always......Read More

Posted on: 2009-01-14 10:03:22 | Rating:

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the end of my marriage
I am away on a trip to Iowa visiting my mom this weekend. While enjoying a relaxing Saturday morning, I recieved a call from the jail. Yep I said JAIL - my husband was calling from there. Imagine my shock.... (here is a little background) D was home from work Friday -sick. He told......Read More