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| 2.11.09 |
To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you. ~Lewis B. Smedes, "Forgiveness - The Power to Change the Past," Christianity Today, 7 January 1983
Gloomy days usually make me feel sad… but lately I can’t help but smile. I am floating again and I can’t help but be grateful for every moment of joy I am experiencing with D. He wants to hug and cuddle and it never gets old- not when before all he could do is show his disdain for me. I am not altogether sure that he is really fighting off the addiction in the way in which is the best for him. He chooses not to attend AA etc. But all I can say is that right now he is smiley and happy and LOVING! Which is amazing for me-It is not typical of who he had become but it is typical of the man I married. Last night in bed he held and cuddled onto me most of the night- so not normal. I am not typically a person who likes to cuddle in her sleep. I feel I need my space to sleep- and I need my sleep! So normally I would not have enjoyed this invasion of my space. But I was just so happy for the contact and the love that I actually enjoyed every moment of it.
The simplest things bring me so much joy. For example yesterday we rented red box and while we were looking and deciding on the movie -we were goofing and laughing and he cuddled up and put his head on my shoulder and arms around me to look at the screen - simple but amazing. I have felt loved by him for the first time in forever lately. I didn’t realize how much I was craving that, how much I needed it.
I feel like God has granted me a gift – my husband has returned just when I thought I would never get him back again.
I hope it lasts forever – I can’t wait to share the rest of my life with THIS man!
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Posted by jwtkwiu on 2009-02-11 12:34:09 | Rating: | Views: 39
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